I'm done with physics? I said I would heck it and give it up.. but ytd i decided to just read through and write down the formulaes all on a piece of paper. End up i understand most stuff and the things that i dont understand cos i have not been listening (i think i was busy counting the number of aircons and lights in the NJ LT5). wow.. i am done..okay.. not really i dont really care about the thermal physics.. the whole thing... well.. at least i think i can pass..whee!!

wanna thank these ppl for their encouragement and well wishes
.Whaley.mummy meiyi.michelle.my dear xiaomei - yining.christina.jamie.

today i decided to at least go through physics.. i think its still okay le.. the things i could never understand i now understand.. thank the Lord for His wisdom!!! I'm in the midst of studying.. late but feeling alert.. slept a teeny weeny bit just now but feeling totally refreshed.. havent felt so for a few days le.. The Lord's grace is just so amazing..=)

I'm whale-less these few days.. was looking forward to seeing the whale tmr.. but it seems that I may not see whaley tmr either.. haish..
okay.. back to physics.. with a joy in my heart that has been lacking for some time =D

days and days of confinement to my dear room have made me so saturated with mathematical knowledge. I know i am taking too long to go through. Considering that i wake up at 11am every day, i console myself that it is acceptable. Plus i am not a very math person, so i walk around sit down lie down just do finish reading the notes which are only like 5 pieces of papaer. not to mention the large blanks that are provided for solutions.
now i am totally saturated.. nothing more goes in. I'm left with binomial and trigo. well, i just scanned through the GP notes. cant really be bothered about it actually. I hate sequences & series.. all the topics in it. ughh.. Binomial is the worse.. but now i decided to give myself a break

I am now home maker-fied. Been cooking and cleaning things these few days (other than hiding my head in the books). Great satisfaction has overwhelmed me. hah. Just did the dishes that were left untouched more than 24h. What's this??!!! okay okay. i did contribute some.. but not that much.. not even half. aye. anw.. its done.
Guess i'm too bored that im doing things that i dont usually do. Like washing the clothes, folding the clothes, doing the dishes.. broke. so i am cooking my own meals. The rice is cooking now... DARN!!! it overflowed.. ughh..
dinner is rice and sardine fish today.. *growls* feeling pretty hungry now.
ytd was rice and salted fish.. my favourtie canned food.. but its still canned food

have to remind myself everyday which day of the week it is. so couped up in my own room that i dont even really know what is happening.. time flies. blocs are hot on my heels.
well, tmr is saturday already.. physics will be a joke.. haha

dad said mum wont be home today cos some lonely friend of hers is having an op tmr and shes there to accompany her friend for the night. how nice. but friends only rite..
so tonight dad'll be back late again. as with every night. driving the cab.
i'll have to wash the clothes and hang them tonight. approaching to be a 100% home maker

i dont find it funny.
i'll keep my mouth shut now.
then there are no more worries..

how did the day become so.

Just now saw channel u news while eating two cups of rice with soya sauce ughh
China having flood le.. then was thinking if meiyi they all affected.. then when the map came up to say which places flooding which places very hot that time i couldnt find any names that were familliar.. so dont have the place they were going too..
then just received as msg that their train is cancelled due to the flood.. wonder where they'll sleep tonight le. =(

wheee~ today started with maths.. went to pamy poo's place cos i simply missed out on too much maths le.. wanted to go for the last make up lect during the hols but the teacher didnt turn up!!! how can.. but haha.. got pamy poo to teach me though
not done with todays target yet.. going to finish it after a lil break.. its quite tangible la
thanks pamy poo for teaching me

sorry whaley the tortoise had to work le. blocs will be over soon..=(

today mummy meiyi went to china with the group le.. ren wen also going home till august.. a bit sad le..
last nite mummy called.. talk cock talk cock a bit.. then about my studies.. hai..the dreaded thought of being retained.. its so possible and may just happen.. and i already gave in my best. Nothing more will help except praying and then continuing to do what i am doing..*sigh*
They'll be back soon...time passes really fast whenever theres work to do.. even though work is bad hahah..

I finished revision for chemistry!!! at least one subject off my mind..
YEAHHHHHH
muahhahahahahahha.. *flies in the air*
math untouched.. biology not any much better
physics cmi..
but still... yayyyy
look at this cute pic!!

feeling better now. thanks joy for talking to me ytd.. talk cock and all.. really miss nj.. miss rv4b.. its so sad that we just get on with life.. no time for class stuff now.. even when like more than 3 quarter of us are in the same sch still..
haha.. but really felt much better talking to joy le.. all the rubbish.. and some moody stuff.. *hugs*
this morning woke up feeling better too..
but its all starting to set in agian.. the time the stress.. haish.. weighing down on me again.. but its really much much better now..
physics
if only studying ends at Os.. haha. if only.. but it doesnt.. oh darn. haha
what should i be when i graduate man.. no clue no idea.. nothing to hold on to. for now, i really enjoy the thought of doing odd jobs.
guess i really want sometime for myself and not for studying and working
singapore is such a stressful hetic place.. argghhh
but i love singapore still haha.. well, its time to head for the books.. tata

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今天不知何故的。。。
心情好糟糕啊 有怎么多事怎么一直烦着我。
整个营会，神就跟我说要爱我妈妈。。看到她真的只看到缺点。。脑子里知道她的好，但没有从前那么感动。而且，要想到她的好， 就只有儿时的记忆中才找得到。最近，天天都在家埋头苦读， 妈妈又没什么出门，我们俩又没什么碰面。 出门之前偶尔来的一句“where are you going” 我也很难好好地回答。。总觉得她放手不管我那么久了，现在要对我的无礼埋怨也没什么资格。
当然我知道我应该对她好些， 但是看到她又不能。。。嗨
功课又堆积如山， 山搞定了还有另外一座。 人生干嘛要如此呢。时间又不够，总觉得我在父母前最开心时莫过于把成绩单交上的那一刻。现在，好像连这都要很久很久才能再发生。
还记得拿回 O 水准成绩时妈妈说要下厨煮饭的那个心情。。不知道即将来临的 A 水准还会如此吗。。。前途是一片灰暗。。。什么希望都见不着。。。
时间已经不足了，考试即将来到。。不拼命就死定， 拼命又不一定成功。
没有耶和华一切都是妄然，但是神啊。。你又在哪里。。
神不会做我们应该做的事。。但是我做得快疯了啊。。
我都感觉不到神了，大家都说神会帮助我因为神是爱我们的神。。好，我信神在这儿与我肩并肩。。
拿又说有神的同在就会欢呼喜乐。。那为和我就像没有了水的鱼儿，怎么都喘不过气来呢？
我作晚已经够难受了，也祷告了。。起床就会开心？ 骗人！ 今天还不事这样？！问题还在怎么能当不在呢？ 还在又怎能欢呼喜乐呢。。。

Yayy, haha.. this is not very refined but still good enough for the time being
THANK YOU YING YING AND ZHIJUN..for helping get this blog up and going in such a short time..=)
well, holidays are ending and the block tests are coming!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH...
well.. at least it's not the promos.. haish.. very stressed now..not enough time.. if ony there was another month of holiday
maybe SARS will come again..