today was super nua..
i woke up at like ten plus. there goes my study time. then went for youth group.. today was at ning's place..
i got back my beloved fbts from dear xiaomei..it told me it missed me so muchh. haha.

then after youth group there was an influx of ppl. cos there was a meeting..all the big shots were there.
lagged arnd and went ikea buy pretty pretty boxes. heh.

we got lost on the way to ikea.in the end dad came to save us and fetched luyao and i to ikea. lol
ate a JUMBO hotdogg. was super hungry.
im still hungry now but im lagging in front of the com. my blogg font looked disgusting when i bold the words.. now its better. i hope it is for everyone else's com too.

xuan just told me just now that she's falling in love with my depressing "poem" i wrote sometime ago.
haha. for 4 months i've been feeling like an idiot. nothing i do was considered good or acceptable.
guess i miss such praises. back in RV.. at least i was Acceptable.
its hard to take pride in my work now. in hc, when i get excited entering a lousy bio course i get the comment "of all ppl, why did they choose YOU??"


cruelty of competition. ur achievements determines ur chances. and for underachievers like me, achievements limit my chances.greatly.

this marks the end of the IMCB thingyy.
it was fun and it was enjoyable because and only because it was slackk. haha, i did everything before and what i really wanted to try was the PCR thing. which they did for us. so nothing new.
today i was late!! Goodness..everyone was waiting for me to start :s
i mustn be late anymore. but that didnt affect the day la.
attended a seminar. slpt through it. played around the work station with TJ ppl. we are like the only few JC students there. along with 2 RJ guys.
the rest were secondary sch students. -.-" thats why its slack. no brains needed.. but i dont see the 11A1s top scorer (u know, the wonder twins) make any noise abt this so haha, i better shut up.

went for arts fest after that. partly to collect the 3 day old work. terrible lot. shant talk abt it
the arts fest was ok lah.. chinese dance was not very orderly.
chior was supperr disappointing to me. its the first time i got to hear HC chior live. i heard their recordings and those were superb! liek the harmo everything super zai kind. but tonight's was the usual, was the secondary sch kind. eeks. i felt RV was a quite above that standard. but i feel that its not the best. I'll wait for bigger events to listen to the chior again.


harmoc was the best i think. i always heard my parents play harmoc when i was little. but that makes only TWO harmocs. the band was rather nice. melodious, pleasing.. feels great to hear them perform. *claps*


throughout the whole arts fest kim and i were shouting "go pam!" when she was sitting beside us.
then when chior came we shouted "go xizhen!!" then all the grand seniors turned around and stared at us cos ms keung was sitting amongst them. hah.
the only real thing was for david. MAD. was quite orderly and the dance steps were nice.
then the whole thing came to an abrupt end. wasnt very satisfied la. but for 3 bucks.. i think its still about there. now i feel that RV cultural societies rock. (though uniformed grps are always the best) hehe.

well, this weeks been fantastic..partly because its 1.5 days of sch and 3 days of IMCB trangenic frog thing

i wake up pretty early everyday. ate breakfast everyday. keeps me going for the rest of they day. no wonder they say breakfast is the most impt meal of the day.
what i did in IMCB almost = i have done in RV + gene manipulation lect in HC.
today fed the froggs. they eat the same thing as my prawny eats. blood worms-frozen.


did micro injection. was quite anyhow and i wasnt really astonished when all my frog eggs died after 3h. the lab tech said "all rotten" after peering at my petri dish under the microscope for 30 secs. haha. but the success rate is 1-2% for first timers they said..and i didnt even do a hundred eggs. maybe around 20+
saw wenqi's photo last year when she went for the same course. in her nanyang uniform and the gigantic white coat that reaches to my knees. (it makes the chinese high boys shorts-less)


we all disected ONE frog. to get erm, an organ of interest. ha. The SCGS girls were like almost going to cryy. and the guys were requesting to cut up different parts to explore the insides of a Xenopus (the frog species)


then the lab tech forcefully squeezed eggs out of the frogs. after they injected HCG in them. he made it sound very simple when explaining. but when he did it.. it was almost killing the frog.. gross.
another worker there told us how they primed the frogs with HCG. but didnt know what HCG stands for..-.-"
(human chronic gonadotrophin) as usual, i know it cos of Mr Chow's kiasu teachings last year. he even taught us everything on gene manipulation. except that i was busy chatting with my gang and caught only half of the lesson.



had a good 4k run with mummy meiyi ytd evening. haha. was quite a good run except that i think i aggrevated my knee injury againn. It's suppose to heal so that i can take NAPFA next week. else this yr i'll have no NAPFA results for medical reasons..i can literally feel my joints rubbing against each other when i move my leg this morning.

执笔数日，文笔减弱 感触仍在 但力不从心搬地写了这个。。不算诗，也不是散文的东西。

im determined not to spoil my week. not to let things become like last week.
going to IMCB for the rest of the week. actually i have to wake up about the same time since the bus takes around the same time to reach.. say maybe ten minutes less than i need to go to school.

im feeling the lethargy already. the feeling i have when i just refused to get up and out of bed every morning last week.

prim and proper. no nonsense. thats the way you want it??
why try so hard.

i came home early wanting to do much work
most of the time packed with pw
now i dont really have time for SPA!!

then came in mr big fat cockroach.. i spent the last half an hour subduing it. GROSS.
then had to clean all the places with dettol after removing parts of the carcass.. now i dont have time for SPA.. oh mann.

i hate roaches. i must buy insecticide!
im missing more lessons this week. cos of the transgenic frog thing.
even no bible study!! it became PE lessons. haha, jogging session. not swimming. thankfully.

went to jo's church today.. haha, she and her performance..
but had a nice time there lah. at least my sian diao mood was liven up a little..
met a nj prsn who says that he feels cheated cos orientatn was too diff frm the real nj life.
well, perhaps i would feel that way if i stayed in nj? *shrugs*
i am student. i study. not play. thats why im in hc rite..now im starting to see my rationale for hopping across the street.


lethargy has overcomed me. sick. of things around.
pw is really getting on my nerves. but gloree limin and cy are working hard. i shouldnt slack. wont be a burden to the group.
bio tutorials are scary. when will they stop.. (yah yah i know.. after As rite.)

kk.. stop talking to myself le.

i shouldnt have gone at all. shouldnt have listened to ch.

this is a disappointing day.. or week i should say
disappointed in my late coming.. slping like a pig. missing lessons.


unfeeling. how can i deny it.
i just am lacking of it.. that one thing that is so important.. love
i gotta catch up with my work.. i know i havent finished studying all the stuff during blocs


physics is gone case again.. thermodynamics is in a mess.. dont understand lecture and tutorial
biology.. as usual i lack details. since i am such an un-thoughtful prsn.
the only thing i saw about my math paper is the marks..i gotta go review it soon
chemistry.. i need the answering technique



i miss nj again.
i miss having friends around me. i dont want them only around on sundays.

the day started with an announcement pertaining to the mystery of missing bags and wallets in the sch these days
there's this guy wearing sch tshirts entering the sch premises to steal things.. he's in his thirties, and he's indian
then got scolded harshly by surresh for some silly stuff lah.. we were partially at fault but he's scolding was rather badd


thankfully we decided to just wear the saree to take pics.. then the cleaning auntie helped gloree and i wear it properly.. we almost didnt want to change out of it.. haha..
the auntie was super nice. though she couldnt speak a word of eng and we couldnt speak tamil, we understood her 'sign languages' quite well..=)
ahha. another nice person in the brown sch.
getting to like the brown sch now. maybe cos of the track? i dont know.. it was during 4.8km that i really thought abt myself being in brown sch. well, ppl are nice but not close.. thats one shortcoming that really buggs me alot. There's hope. though ch is does silly things most of the time i think shes like one of the nicest.lol.
and today she dropped her bangles into the toilet bowl.. YUCKS.
gloree and i were super disgusted. i stopped her from attempting to take it out of the bowl with her bare hands many times but she still did in the end. I'm not going to touch ch anymore!!

rahh! I ran 4.8km today till the sun had set =)
no glaring sun
no heatstroke
had a great and comfortable pace with ch
improved timing by 2mins
felt that i didnt put in my best though


just reached home
cooked a hideous dinner but filling =)
prepared tmr's lunchbox..im getting sick of it. its either apple bars kaya bread or egg mayo..
what else can penniless kids with gigantic appetite do

-i killed three hungry mosquitoes todayy..rrrahh-

tmr's muah chee selling (and eating) day
the day after is wear saree day and take class photo day
but i'll be getting back biology. the only subject i'm passionate in.
decent pass would be good..

a picture speaks a thousand words.
a thousand words cant express all that i feel now..
but heres a part of what i wanna say


weary.frustrated.mere existence

I ran 4.8km
first time i ran this distance this year.. first time i ran in 5 months.
got a lousy timing, 8 mins slower than the person before me.. slowww..
but great that i didnt stop=)
wanted to run another set after i reach home today but it started raining.. aww..
then it poured and i cant even go to do pw.


tmrs physics indept learning test le
and i dont have the notes at all
depending on ancient rv notes i dug out from my pile of books to give away..
i feel so deadd.. i failed my physics blocs too.. by a large margin. Getting in physics remedial le. well, its more of a good thing lah.


left biology to take back.. not much hopes for i know i dont really do well at it.. but i love the subject.. *shrugs* i'll take whatever that comes..

after tiring sch day today, all RVians went home supper early. Like immediately after sch.. pam yyy and i left for homethen met cy after yyy went up her bus..
its just so long since i took a long bus ride. with jerky movements and the all so attractive tv mobile that gets my head tilted to one painful direction.
met hongwei on the bus. heard that 05S21 did not do well in blocs. =( jiayou guys!! dont be too demoralised lah, its only 20% of the overalls.. promos are 80% rite.. so much more you can catch up..
by the time hongwei got off the bus i was supperr giddy le.. and when i finally got off the bus, i was close to puking. head was throbbing ever since bio lecture today.. arGhh.. and i found out today that kimberle drinks AXE BRAND MEDIACTED OIL to cure stomach pains..ughh
anw, i was still giddy when i was home. tried to eat instant noodles to get rid of the puking sensation. well, it did go away..
then i went to sleep.. woke up. 11pm..O.0
and i felt like puking agian..even now..
i hate tv mobile.. it makes me so much more giddy on the bus.. why are the bus rides so long.

first sunday with mummy meiyi back with us.. haha very happy to see her.. =D
she bought me socks from china.. hehe
today was quite a bad start. woke up at ONE PM.
then rushed to iron clothes, bathe, prepare breakfast and all..called whale no ans
finally got to leave house

it was super hot today then had spots of raindrops on parts of the pavement.. so i prayed that it wouldnt rain on me.. though the sun was scorching

then i reached the super farr bustop and suddenly it dawned on me that i should check for my ezlink card.. and so i did and it wasnt there.
called cab dad to pick me up instead or i'd be late for church.
so went home to wait for cab dad. called whale no ans

reached church a few mins late.
praise and worship--new song.. called whale no ans
ning ning went for piano in the midst. had service.. whale had replied

after service ate a sumptous dinner, ice-cream, desserts (courtesy of the zhi2 cha4 uncle)
went home today with my new found neighbour joyce and her brother.. haha. never knew someone from church lived in the same block as i do. the journey home seemed so much shorter and quicker.. =)
cab dad was nearby so picked the three of us--home we went hehe.

haha. now bible study mummy meiyi's coming over to my place..YAYY

oooh. today's the ultra slacky day..
woke up early for speech day then waited outside the AVA room for about ten mins before llm came out to scold us for being late (???)
then after a lot of talking and briefing and a past students survey (now i know where they get feedback from.. no wonder some dont reflect what i think haha) we finally went to the mini hall.

mrs tan geok lian made us pin up our hair.. like so ugly and its the kind of pin i never ever use before so its super ugly..

no book prize no aircon very hot quite sweaty (no wonder the blazer stinks when i borrowed it)
took prize, forgot where to go after that, so wondered around a bit on stage till i remembered that there is this funny backdoor to come out from (how embarassing)
they read my name wrongly when i went up.. i was tan li juan
then my Chinese name on my gold coin is wrong.. ughh.. my chinese name is more precious than my english name k..disappointing

took pic with 4B ppl
took pic with Hwa Chong Farmily
took pic with Graces.. Graces of The world unite!! haha.

pia for youth group.. traffic jam!!! the ndp tank was like infront of the bus..-.-"" then so hot, the bus aircon was down. For some reason i didnt feel extremely sweaty for the day la, but i thought that the old and the children in the bus were really pitiful. The scene made me feel hot.. not that i did.. i just felt a little stuffy.. thats all. But it was quite a fortunate jam la.. not very bad

watched tribulation.. some movie on the end of times.. 666 and stuff.. super exciting.. now going to watch another then return to church tmr.. Quite scary le.. haha
after the movie the guys all left
then the girls were left behind talking.. luyao and i imagining things and michelle explaining things to us.. haha, then we were speculating abt what would happen to us if the 666 came.. what would we do.. then i realised that the worse case was that we could all live tgt.. which presently sounds quite fun le.. like church camp.. haha. But yah, i know.. if it really happens i'll probably be super depressed..
then we were also thinking about hitler and stuff.. relating them to the movie we watched..
these things now seem much more real to me than words in the bible.. it'll really happen.
wonder what'll happen when Jesus comes back.. if i'm sleeping, he'll wake me up rite.. so i can see Him coming.. but how will He ensure everyone sees Him?? EVERYONE le.. amazing.. haha.

but still, the thought of the end of times is scary enough to send a chill down my spine.. =S
Lord be with me.

mummy meiyi's back~~ =)


hehe.. thought i was going to be late to the airport but good thing she had not came out yet..=) the plane was delayed so couldn't go watch War of the Worlds. Had intended to catch the midnight show. oh wells, at least i gotta see him for the first time this week.


Glad that she's back,
glad that i could see him


Glad that my physics MCQ was the only failure in the class--which is third in level, if thats a consolation. Got C for everything else, which is a pass but stil the lowest band in the class.. freaking smart and competitive. At least I aint too sad about it..a lot of things to console myself on the failure, but the borderline pass i could get isnt too good as well isnt it.


I'm a classic example of a frog in a well.
Primary school excellent results--RV culture shock.. worked hard--good results---HC work hard----dont get results =)
Looking back, i felt really smart in primary school and was above average in RV.. there goes my ego. haha.

blocs were terrible for me.. struggling inside.. the kind that God plans to change you drastically. For weeks I had been praying for the Lord to break me cos i knew that the life I was leading, I was in charge. But, when i really did came.. my obedience wasnt immediate. ughh.. but really wanna see what He can do this time..I dont see a point in studying, I hate it. But for some weird reason I always strive and do well for it cos its the only thing I show to my family about me. They are left out on the rest of my life.


Well, not a B on any of my national or international exams so far. Now A's will be in His hands, not mine anymore.


Throughout the whole process, I was dying.. before it really started, I was shattered. But when it really came.. it was much better (maybe cos i could really tell myself its ending ). It went away fast too and tomorrow's the day things resume. But I shall not.
Leaned on him so much this period, I dont want it all to go away. I want His presence to stay. Motivation: Mummy Meiyi's card..."surely the arm of the Lord is not too short to save, nor His ears too dull to hear" its on my table all along.. not in its envelope but opened. facing me as i study. Then now, i decided to take out all my past cards and letters and neocards and neoprints. Looked at them, memories flooded in.
Rachel//Zhijun//PRIS.MS.STANCE//RVNP
those days, really fond memories.. rv sucks i used to say.. now its rv system. not the ppl.. not even some of the teachers..
ms cheong-i saw her green note she gave to all her students and it read "You've improved a lot this year. Must continue to work hard in JC. Ha.. must have deliberately drawn all the structures wrongly right? Either to test me or to make me 'vomit blood' " lol.. the farewell note i wrote to her had a backdrop of many organic molecules, with structures all ridiculously wrong.. just for the fun of it. haha. That was me, then.

And i thought back. Mr Chew, who knew that he didnt want to merely teach social studies or history, he want to teach us. Sacrificing his time to talk to us whenever he felt that we were down or sad or demoralised. Took the time to encourage us to spur us on, erm sometimes to scare us so we wont slacken. haha. Thanks!

There was Mrs Ho too, intersting teacher. Always trying her best. Young lady with deep thoughts. Hope her daughter isnt giving her sleepless nights still..
Awwww.. those were the best teachers in my upper secondary life.. changed me a lot.. esp ms cheong.. i can proudly say.. I am not most intersted in chemistry now, BUT ITS MY BEST SUBJECT MS CHEONG!!! haha.

Then was the RVnp stuff.. i read through it and found out that Jing Min and Zhijun really did look up to me...took pride in my np stuff although interpersonal stuff were in a mess..only girl to pass the ssgt test. it was a great consolation then, when the squad practically just fell out. and i rmb jm's friendster testi.."her passion for doing things often gives mi the drive to do things =) " haha. i wonder where that part of me is now.. i slack at cca slack at sch.. i need something that i can do my best in. definitely not the books that is. something PHYSICAL.. haha. i miss friendship in school.. i think the Lord has blessed me with pamy poo le.. she came like within a week of my prayers..I told the Lord i was so lonely and sad in hc, haha. And she was RVian..that was one big thing to me. and Christian.. fantastic!
I miss my crazy 4B friends.. i miss pris ms stance.. CRAZINESS is what is lacking in my life.. everyone i know now is not crazy enough.

That day on the bus home with joanna.. i laughed so hard i havent laughed for this year.. not even in NJ.. its an RV thing to me. but i had been laughing like that in RV everyday with pris ms stance. and even harder.

I still remember the tree at the RV new block corridor.. The tree that grew so near the building ms stance pris could all reach it and pull it. But i (being the shortest and thus my arms the shortest) just couldnt reach it and they had to pull it in for me to reach it.. hehe.. but then. i pulled it so hard that it would stay there. and everyday i could reach it.. lol.. and we wrote our names on the tree leaves, and shredded its leaves saying that it is its hair, then we curled the 'hair' by using the scissors (the way you make a paper strip curl)---we gave her a name.."Good friend" we were so so so crappy crazy and merry.. i was reading stance's od the other day, her past entries that i pat her head when she was sad..


now i dont even have a good friend in hc..those were the days.. haish.. i feel so old and superficial these days like adults are supposed to be?? *shrugs*i guess thats what they call maturity--cant play cant be crazy.. do work and be responsible! so silly.. why is play associated with irresponsibility. I play but i get results what.. if i dont play i dont get results too actually.. pathetic society


2 years.. just 2 years I wil be an undergrad. MAUAHAHAHA. yucks. can i take O levels three times to get back to those happy times?? haha

Last year, during the extremely stressful (though not as stressful as blocs) period of O levels and prelims... a young secondary four student by the name of ecarg (name spelt backwards to protect individual) was studying for her geography paper. She then had this sudden weird thought to have a pet to destress. The letter P popped into her mind out of the blue followed by letters R, A,W, N!!! How incredible!! Then she immediately grabbed a pencil and pencil-ed it down (since you can pen down something..) Amazingly, these 5 letters spelt out PRAWWNNN. So she went to the nearest pet shop and bought just that..months later she felt that it was too lonely and got it another fellow species. But, the new prawn came, killed the old prawn and ate it up!! What brutality.


The prawn has been behaving weirdly ever since.. perhaps due to the intake of a fellow species' brain, it had become twice as intelligent as the rest of its kind! Now, its weird behavior has taken a step further... to becoming SUPER WEIRD..
It was placed by ecarg in a fish tank, at least five times its height, at the balcony of the house. Last night, it has mysteriously migrated to the washroom in the kitchen..and was discovered by ecarg's father in the morning. Nobody knew why, everyone in the house was baffled by the mysterious appearance of the prawn in the washroom. Could the prawn have climbed out of the tank and got to the washroom that was at least 30 steps away from the tank?Could some supernatural force have brought it there? Could an alien dropped by and found it interesting to play with but forgot to put it back to tank? Could a thief attempt to steal it but the prawn nibbled a hole through the sack of the thief (theives carry a sack to store the loot and climb in and out of windows , dont they?) Could it be...

突然间心中有种莫名的空虚， 突然就是没事做了。要说上继续温习，我在这几个星期内已做到了。心中想的是要有种解放，但是只有突如其来的这种茫然、失措。同班同学今日考完后约好看电影，我根本就不晓得。算了，反正他们看的戏我都不想看。只是真的在这个学校找不到归属，可悲得很。
war of the worlds 我想看嘞，但是鲸又去了迎新营。。
好想去沙滩晒太阳，读书。。享受。若不想享受，就要等到下次大考才能传口气了。。而那时年底的事了。好累啊！ 真正假期还得等到一年半嘞。怎么着样啊。
现在就只好整理整理一下房间, 也不说很乱啊。然后就可能剪个发，闲逛闲逛吧。今早才睡了一个钟头，现在天气又那么酷热，真有点昏昏欲睡的感觉。。嘿，我还是去整理房间在看如何吧。
pam poo painted my toenails.. hehe.. not bad la.. at least the colour isnt too badd=)
pam poo entertined me for around 3hours.. and cooked me lunch.. though she was fasting.. haha thnx pamy poo...

mummy meiyi's coming back!!:D

彻夜不眠就是要尽力！！！ 现在时间已经是三点钟了，但是我今天下午两点才正式开始，不算是勤劳，乃是零时抱佛脚。不过，我还是要尽我所能为最后一张测验而加油！ 哈哈，其实我现在其实是在透个气，反正没人会现在读到我写的这些。这个星期，鲸 不在了！！！=(
嘿嘿，但是美仪姐回来了！！哈哈，希望我能去接机叻。

珊 今天的心情又再次的陷入低谷了。早上11点钟 睡眼惺忪的她走出房门便见着母亲正在打扫房子。心中有些惊讶，又有些开心的她走到楼下去探个究竟。母亲果然正在打扫呢！ 珊 的家，很少会有人打扫，只有在每年年除夕大伙儿才会一齐地打扫房子。珊 老早便认为客厅、厨房、餐桌那儿实在是脏， 但因家人都不怎么爱戴这个家， 也就把脏不忍睹的家习以为常。唯有珊 自己的房间，她会时常打扫。家中别的地方，珊 没有时间，没有精力，更没有那个兴趣去理会。自私自利，是这个家平日的写照，可悲的很。
母亲打扫着客厅，常年累积，沉淀的污垢也就一目了然了。珊 后来发现自己放在楼梯旁的物件被移动。珊 正为着年中考而非常的忙碌，心中也十分的压力。所以东西放在那儿是打算考完试后在去处理的。哪知，母亲尽然擅自作决定，把珊 的东西处理掉。有些本大算捐赠，干净的物品，母亲拿去洗——费时又费力。又有些珊 是要丢弃，不想再见到的东西，更不愿母亲见着的物品，母亲因为挖了珊 东西而看到了。糟的是，她竟然拿出来用！！！ 珊 丢弃这些物品就是不想再见到它们，母亲却摆了出来。
珊 生来怪癖，就是非常讨厌被别人干扰，更讨厌的是自己的东西被人翻弄。母亲很清楚这一点。珊 见到了气呼呼地与母亲对质，语气十分的重。珊 几乎又回到了年少时，血气方刚，脾气暴躁的样子了。接下来，珊 与母亲打闹了一番，两人都十分的火。两方都坚持自己的看法。珊 心中的母亲，自私自利，不顾孩子，成天就只懂得自己做事与朋友一块儿，就是不曾真正关心两个女儿。珊 自己未尝不是如此，做事也不为这个家着想，家中的污垢她不加理会，甚至是有蛮多的贡献。母亲看不惯珊 的行为，珊 注视着母亲对她地忽略与冷落。两人平时就话不投机半句多，抄起架来还真是惊天动地。
珊 气呼呼地，心中只有一个忆念——就是要尽快离开有母亲的地方。母亲在一楼，泪流满面，心中充满着不负于埋怨。珊 在最短的时间内准备好了便出门，想把家中一切的不愉快抛在脑后。
珊 会了鲸 ，两人开心地到市区去办了点事便一同到教会去。途中有说有笑，珊 也真地把与母亲的争吵暂时的忘了。
平时只需花上十分钟回家的路，珊 今天华了将近半个钟头才走完。珊 心中思绪始终无法整理，心中想着鲸的事也想起了早上的争执，几乎就做了个不归家的街道巡逻员了。路途中，珊 接到了一则亲切的简讯——是宁 发来的问候：“。。把一切都交拖给神吧。。”
临家的珊 见到母亲在已打扫的家中歇息，话不说，看也不看一眼，便上楼把房门给关上了。珊 听见母亲离开一楼道自己放离去后才到厨房准备泡面当晚餐，心中至今依然闷闷不乐。。

well, for most blocs are over but for me.. the most impt subject to me is yet to be done with. i feel so tired by them already.. physically and mentally. the outreach today. well, was quite good la. just that the ans werent specific enough. got a comfortable number of newcomers and our own church ppl.. so things were quite good.
my group. xiaoting christina shengjin yize. was rather enthu la.. we all find and find then wasted a lot of time intially then towards the end chiong all the way. everybody ran.. lol.. and xiaoting was super hiong going through the crowds.. and she knew all the ways into shopping centres where there arent many ppl. like we just ran with her all the way to taka, went right in and poof.. there was the lifts.. no crowds met along the way. haha.. pro man. she really know orchard well.. she even know which floor the things are at.. haha.
keyboard had been down the past week.. wanted to blogg.. had so much *@#$#&W$% about the bloc papers.. physics was a true joke la..GP i fell asleep as during every other GP paper.. GP is just too boring.. i usually sleep during RV's comprehension papers too..compo is so much better.. math was badd la.. not cos the paper is tough its cos i suck at it.. ppl come out saying.. "wah, quite okay ahh.." or "very easy".. then there are those that say "dead.. im dead.." but they start discussing the qns.. and say they are not sure about this and that.. oh mann.. i dont even get what they are saying.. like we took a different paper liddat. Every paper hear the class talk about it super sian diao. only in the fellow RVians can i find the compromised comfort that im not that a dumbass after all..
today was rather tired.. too long never exercise le.. i hate going for canoe trg.. its not trg.. its waste of time. i miss touch rug..i miss np. even PE. I never ever once went for PE in hc.. can you believe it? cos for the first few weeks the sch pe dpt conveniently missed the second intakers out and when they finally realise we have nowhere to go we are told on the last pe lesson of the term that we are in some funny dance shit. wth
i miss intense physical activity. and i just cant put my best in the canoe trgs to make the best outta it. i think i should just quit and self train everyday. more effective.. more flexible. more personal time. since hc canoe gives me totally no sense of belonging at all.. *shrugs* but the idea of cca-less-ness is just badd.. i wanna excel in my cca.. i wanna be in not out.. bah.
tonights bad. bad mood bad attitude bad time bad bad bad bad bad. i dont know if i should go bible and just sleep.. but i was in such a bad mood just now i had been lying down on my bed..
i havent really started biology. i wont have time tomorrow. do what? leave it to God? but shouldnt i like put more effort in it?? so lethargic.. i will shut my trap. you wont have to repeat that again.