today was super nua..
i woke up at like ten plus. there goes my study time. then went for youth group.. today was at ning's place..
i got back my beloved fbts from dear xiaomei..it told me it missed me so muchh. haha.

then after youth group there was an influx of ppl. cos there was a meeting..all the big shots were there.
lagged arnd and went ikea buy pretty pretty boxes. heh.

we got lost on the way to ikea.in the end dad came to save us and fetched luyao and i to ikea. lol
ate a JUMBO hotdogg. was super hungry.
im still hungry now but im lagging in front of the com. my blogg font looked disgusting when i bold the words.. now its better. i hope it is for everyone else's com too.

xuan just told me just now that she's falling in love with my depressing "poem" i wrote sometime ago.
haha. for 4 months i've been feeling like an idiot. nothing i do was considered good or acceptable.
guess i miss such praises. back in RV.. at least i was Acceptable.
its hard to take pride in my work now. in hc, when i get excited entering a lousy bio course i get the comment "of all ppl, why did they choose YOU??"


cruelty of competition. ur achievements determines ur chances. and for underachievers like me, achievements limit my chances.greatly.