today i took the train for baptism classes early in the morning. really tiredd.
i was semi conscious on the way. but i was looking around. at the ppl.

there were many teens. some holding notes studying on the train. others talking passionately to their friends about topics close to heart. one of them blasting his player so loudly the whole car could hear his song. a song that kept me from sleeping. a song that i could not make out the words. a song that reminded me of an article i read on the newspaper. on a band. wearing scary masks in the concert. driven not by love are these guys but by the strong emotions. just like the one with the number 666. he will utillise these emotions of man.

Ignorance was what i saw. that there is a pressing need to wake these souls up. show them what exactly they are doing. having fun they might say, enjoying life.
laboratory mice go through a period of painlessness when they feel nothing and just lie there, but little do they know that they are going to be killed next. and the painlessness, or relaxation is due to cholorfoam.
No, its not relaxing, its harmful.and you're going to be next if you are so intensely soaked in worldy things. dont tell me you actually know what the singer is rapping.. cos i bet it'll make sense only when you play it backwards.
and i wondered. how did the society change so much since i was young. i look at singapore today. i look at the society of the developed world now. i feel what the Lord feels. pain. his creation is away from Him. he told us to be alert. but look at us.
i never noticed. i knew it was happening. i knew there are ppl in singapore. but i never expected that it was so real. so close to me. so widespread and urgent.

these ppl "enjoy" and pass away. and the beast claims their soul. not the Creator.
among these are my parents. daddy who first told me--God loves me. now says "I've been deceived for over forty years. I was foolish." I cant tell him the Word of God. for he already knew it. I cant explain it better for him, for dad must have had rebuked everything the Lord says in his heart before he let loose his grip on God.

among these are the very people i play and study and eat tgt every single day. my classmates.
i am far from perfection. and i feel that its not possible for me to tell them this good news such that they really take it. for their eyes are set on worldy things. their scale belongs to the world. i am judged by those standards. full of sin i am in the world of God and only by His grace i continue to experience His love. i have to change to change others. but im already trying so hard. and i see the urgency to tell them all about this. this amazing gospel.
its more urgent than As even if it is tomorrow and i havent studied anything.
its more urgent than anything on earth. for it is written: the Day and the Hour unknown. and will catch us offguard.