this entry is for dearest shifu.
thank you so much.


my life aint that fantastic as it appears online. i dont even find it enjoyable. im dying. of stress, of underperfomance. or perhaps the expectations of others peers and myself.
then i saw what you wrote. just a few lines. but they lifted up my downcast spirit.
i indeed miss those times we spent playing chess during lessons. weilong and daniel. hey girl, i miss you so.
we cant turn time back. im not so sure we get to do those things again. but i guess youre one of those who walked into my life, and stayed on. though not physically at all. thats the beauty of our relationship eh.
i have a special connection with this special friend of mine. we had no choice but to sit tgt. but we willed things to be how they are now.


i guess when someone says she appreciates you. and then says shes even jealous of your life. no matter how hard the road actually is, you now look at those things you have that others dont get.


my closest buds are not in hc at all. except prisy pris.
and friends dont really get in touch in this vast brown campus. things are going on everywhere. people are buzzing about. no time to slow down no time to talk no time to connect. and somehow, people just drift apart like that.


人在高处不胜寒，很贴切的形容了我现在的心情。
but because of what you wrote shifu, that now i see that i have all these gifts. gifts people may sacrifice all they have to get. i shld learn to appreciate them. not lament.
hard is the road ahead of me now, but no other road is any easier. the road i am on, is a little harder, but much more rewarding. i believe.