okay. last night i finally read haoxia's email that has been said to be existing. so i tried drinking plain water for dont know how long in a zillion yrs. perhaps cos of the new kettle, i seriously feel like puking. but i endured. hah. i went for a dip in the pool today..couldnt swim properly. =S but i cant stand being inactive. i am close to drinking one litre of water today *claps*


i will try to cut down my diet too. hah. discipline! today's day one.
i will try to sleep regular hours too. discipline again.
i must do my homework and have time for revision! discipline discipline.


let's see. the last entry is three days ago.
and i have yet to complete these tasks.

1. complete my asssurance to chinese
2. wash the bathroom
3. kill marine mammal
4. i packed my clothes! but they've piled up every since.

and im going to sleep before twelve. so i'll do 3 and 4 and go to bed. or at least 4.

da rest is due tmr.

and i must do evo tut. i wanted to do it at jurong east sports complex today. at the kfc. and im so smart not to bring my tys along =D

went to this talk today called "let my people think" i rmb that somewhere in the Bible says that the Trinity cannot be fully understood my man. so i decided that by faith i shall believe. haha. today i am convinced that there are three persons and one God. i quite evident everywhere, really. will blog about it another day. need to do work! discipline!

in all aspects.. in diet in sleep in work in routine. not for canoe but for the Lord my God..

bleagh. half way writing my entry.. my com konked out. i need com doctor to fix my weary darling. hah. or wihtout it i will just diee.

okay, i was saying.. since the trip.. I have been LOADED with new tasks and assignments. i got a job to hopefully save up for hefty university expenses. but i decided that the first few months of salary will go to buying me a new hp and perhaps swimming costume.
i am officially going to learn swimming. even if i drown trying..which cant really be snce im loaded with fats. i cant do anyting else. swimming is my only exercise. i hate it more than running actually. and np got me over this barrier. think canoeing is going to get me over the swimming barrier. then again..i have no choice cos i cant stand not being physically active!

hmm. i shld stop lamenting abt my responsibilities. just that i dont think im up to the job. i used to love new tasks in npcc last time.. hmm, i still love them.. but fear them a little now. rahh.


so, now im going to plan what im supposed to do and this time i must get it started with.
things im supposed to do now:

1. pack up my messy room! - kill the marine mammal stuff floating around. its time i did that.
2. plan my holiday homework schedule!
3. keep all my clothes properly. thier kindda thrown onto my rocking chair.
4. type minutes of meeting.

things to do tmr.

1. do one issues and ideas in the morning.
2. wash the bathroom
3. go to redhill -- for secret mtg. hahah.
4. translate my assurance to chinese. =D

nongkhai pictures are up! wee~:D
http://thenongkhaiexperience.shutterfly.com/action/

i've been tagged -.-
RULES OF GAME:
1. post 5 weird/random stuffs about yourself
2. at the end of the quiz list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this and leave a comment "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.
five wierd/random stuff about me:

1. I love Jesus =D
2. i just went to nongkhai thailand to teach little adorable children simple english. was more like playing with them. extremely enjoyable. and i saw firecrackers go off!! since its banned in singapore..its qutie an eye opener
3. sprained my back before the trip while sleeping so i cant go for canoeing trainings and its hurting a lot now cos i sat down to do work the whole day=( (i have completed 5 issues and ideas articles! -- considering that my english has downgraded to broken sentences after spending a week in nongkhai)
4. i am currently quite irritated by a certian whiny middleaged round woman who has no bloodties with me whatsoever but is living in my house! she just disrupted my delightful movie 'catch me if you can' just cos she is back home and she must have MY MOTHER'S room to be void of 'children' whom she has apparently forgot that i actually grow up and am seventeen years old already.
5. i am weird. and like to be alone and detached from everyone sometimes.. but very noisy when in a group. people hardly know what i am thinking actually.. they usually have the impression that they do know.

five people who have been tagged:

dear xiaomei. i dont care.. its not stated in the rules of the game =D

yisin

yyy

joyce da jie

seah siew hiok!

oh wee! OCIP rocks. well, its so much better than i thought. to think i was reluctant to go. now i dont want to be back in singapore. i have to get started on (un)HAPPY package and issues & ideas sooon


I taught english in Ban Proah Primary School. so fun. first day we didnt know what to do but i turned out great.. taught P6 random stuff and played with them. wont bore you with the details. three hours of teaching straight. was quite tiring. kids were well behaved.

had lunch from the school.. ate their fish from the fish pond and their veggie from their garden. the fish was good. food was good. except the veggie, which we called "grass" for obvious reasons. they were raw and i think its the same kind of leaves you find decorating the streets of singapore. we didnt eat much of them, a bit wasted. but it was really bitter. they served us an increasingly smaller portion of grass everyday after which. perhaps they had plucked all the leaves from their garden.

after lunch we taught the P4s. oh my goodness. it was terrible! a whole hour of chaos. all because of yisin's name.. which meants sort of like 'maffia' to locals.. cos of some ancient popular chinese movie starring chow run fat..-.-" was a little demoralising.. but we pressed on.



second day was funn. was SPORTS DAY. practically played with the kids for the whole day alternating btw volleyball soccer and some malay sports that i dont know the name.. so dak koll or something. bleahhs. was quite charred that day. yayy. a tone darker and nearer to my past skin colour.

i went orphanage and disabled centre. quite an emotional experience.
i still rmb Bang. this kid who was seriously violent.. was kicked in the face by him several times.. then i carried him and threw him up.. haha. in a playful manner k.. im not violent..he was smiling
after that i heard that he was thrown down a building by his psychotic mother.. and the kids in the orphanages were found in the forests and rubbish dumps and back alleys etc. all we could do was give them temporal love and care..one boy couldnt even say goodbye when we were leaving. i saw him run away to cry..='(


we played soccer with basically everyone in thailand. the school, orphanage and disabled centre. we lost to all of them i think. haha. even the disabled ones.. they are so zai. haha. big deal they dont have one arm..
i had a taste of cheerleading though.. i played the drums to cheer for HC team in the disabled rehab centre. =D



was quite sad leaving the school. i cant rmb their names. i rmb their faces and what they did. i earn going back. it was so fun. each day was so fulfilling.


playing angel mortal game was fun. haha. but the frag game was funner!! I AM THE ULTIMATE WINNER after kiling david while pretending to be just awake from my sleep and asking him to help me add creamer to my teh. haha.
poor jasmine and i. wo men xiang yi wei ming. haha, her angel's my mortal and my angel is her mortal.


will upload the pictures soon..=D got this really cute xiao shuai ge..:D

okay all packed and ready to go
really sleepy. maybe i'll take a short nap cos i need to be in the shower in two more hours
im quite afraid to go.. dont wanna go. i dont know why. since when have i become so dependent and timid to do things.. was never so..


but sorted things out a bit.
even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil, for You are with me.
what more thailand.


perhaps i merely showed who i really am this yr. perhaps it wasnt actually a change of character but merely expression..
hope this will cheer me up a little..
things to look forward after the trip:D

1. chocolate chip cookies and orange cookies
2. secret plans from michelle
3. being able to start my scheduled work
4. really really dont need to go do school stuff ANYMORE (for the year)
5. tuition ----- $$$ haha.

the only thing I ask of You now..be with me.

oh wee.. im on my first job in my life. lalala.
but basically i just slack in this tuition centre and wait for two children to come in for the whole day!! haha. easy money but not a lot though.

i just read books and listen to the radio and perhaps play some board games with the children if they're bored since its the holidays now and the boss says its okay to play with them.. haha. if only i brought my guitar with me mann..wee~ but im gonna be late for class chalet.





ytd was fantastic. im at least happier now..how could i forget Your ominipresence. how silly of me to be downcast for the past two weeks. aft thailand im going to be crazy.. and spend my time well. :D
im back to reading on evolution and munching on snacks cya!

things to do before i go for thailand trip:

1. evolution tutorial! (incl. reading the notes taking into acc. that i only went for the first evo lect.)
2. issues and ideas ( 2 more articles )
3. buy origami squares for the thai kids!!
4. last min part time job on monday wee
5. get more hc shirts for the trip

i still wanna go for the camp. apathetic to everything thats happening around me. bleahhs. if only i had more time to decide. whats the pt of all these now. hope the trip is really Your will.

wee! pw is gone! finally i can do whatever i want in the holidays (except exercise)


haha, ytd aft handing up the stupid project file. i went home and finally finished my respiration tutorial haha. yayyy. i should be doing evolution before i go for thailand trip. maybe then i will let myself go for the s78 bbq.


then went to yyy's house to countdown ying and ch's bdae! but.. we were all watching 50 first dates that midnight had past. lol. then we ate cake at almost one am in the morning. =D was super fun celebrating ch's FIRST bdae. even yyy's mother teased her a little! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING YING!! (and ch)
we had movie marathon and watched tong meng qi yuan. wasnt in the mood when we were watching meet the parents. and ended up playing bridge and talking rubbish through the nite.
couldnt remember what happened aft that. think everyone fell aslp or something but yyy and i were playing chess until it was so difficult to breakthrough all the traps we set for each other that she gave up and threw it to ch to play. i think we played for close to three hours. and only two games. was quite funny cos we only had two piece of chess each left on the chess board for the last one hour.


when all the sleepy heads eventually woke up they decided to watch this weird movie qian bei bu zui which had this extremely porn looking cover. i headed home before the movie ended though.. wanting to start evolution but couldnt resist the temptation of my lovely bed as usual. hah.

this is a world where people like to think that they are cared for.
but seriously, nobody cares. family = nothing.




there's nothing called justice here. even the law and legislation in every nation cannot ensure fairness. there's nothing fair to talk about.






i dont like hide and seek games. come out, please, Lord.

i overheard the most retarded conversation in HC ever.
two people were talking at S7A class bench..and one said to the other

"heyy, how come we say 'shit, i need to pee!' but we dont say 'pee, i need to shit!' "

this is ultimate. i almost died-ed.
and it reminded me of what christopher asked me last time..
what's the difference between a bird and a fly



ans: a bird can fly but a fly cannot bird
*faints*