bye bye arenes tutorial =p



integrated happy permutations are left.

sold me hp book. for 5 bucks less than the original. oh yayy.


so greatly He has blessed me. a great change of circumstances compared to less than a year ago. what a wonderous year. and a hopeful one ahead. for You keep Your promises. and You promised me a splendid one.

i attended all three services today. and everypart of the first service was great.
so You heard my cry, and you taught me patience and faith. the best present this christmas was the answer you gave me, the confirmation you made with me. in part i knew and more i wanted. more i got this christmas. thank You.


even the performance on the harp. You spoke so clearly and so kindly. worship - its like music. heavenly, and i could just do it all day, to give You the praises You are worthy of.
and the harp is one of the hardest to keep in tune - and so we must always tune ourselves..that we may worship you and play the most melodious song to You, according to the way it should be, the way You say it should be. no easy way. just One Way - Jesus.



star of the night. light of the world. saviour to all.


let all that has breath praise the Lord Almighty.

its christmas eve and an unfantomnable sadness has came upon me.



there was this happy kid. she loved to play around with people, was curious of things around her. but nobody thought her how to say what she felt. and the people around were all too busy to bother about this kid who was so curious about things that are so common around them. so they placed this noisy thing that obstructed them one side. in a corner.


alone, the happy kid made a friend. a grown up friend. he was really bad. thought her bad things, gave her bad thoughts. and the happy kid was so hurt she decided to let the grown up command her around. at least she would be safe. the grown up wanted things and fought for it himself. the grown up didnt trust people, didnt let people do things, things went the way the grown up wanted. and since it went the way her friend wanted it to be, the kid thought that it was good.




last year, the kid realised, that this wasnt what she wanted. she wanted friends, she wanted company, she wanted love. she went out again. but the grown up didnt really like it. long time friends turned into enemies.
the grown up has been fighting a losing battle since the day before the happy kid took her O level results.
but once in a while, the happy kid feels that old feeling again. of being abandoned, and stumbles whether or not to let the grown up take over her again.


and now the happy kid realises. that what she went through was because she was growing up. that people will let you alone, to do things you should learn to do. now the kid's got a problem.. to grow up or not. but never will she be that domineering grown up. will she be able to take it.
this christmas, she doesnt want to. for grown ups deal with problems themselves. who will listen to the endless rantings and problems a child has. who will be there.





Lord you will be, right?

i just realised that my set of chemistry homework for the holidays are basically non-existent to the rest of the hwachong population. whilst everyone is doing the alkenes and arenes tutorial. i have been doing a non-existent set of chemistry qns such that it is close to completion, with my arenes tutorial totally untouched.

and the person who passed me the set of qns is basically uncontactable and missing. sarah says shes an angel in diguise. rightt.

oh wells, i have finished issues and ideas.
HAPPY package and bio and arenes left.



-5 minutes later-
i found out that there is math homework!!
permutations?! i wasnt even there at the lecture. go me~




-2.00am-
i got the permutations notes thanks to my beloved friend david. you rock!! it was so nice of you (= bon voyage!

just a reminder for myself :

through Christ all things are possible.



HAPPY package rocks 6 down 9 more to go
Issues and Ideas rocks too! 15 done 6 more to go (boo. what happens if i finish it. i will miss reading on democracy and war crimes and human rights)
ecology tutorial MCQ done structured and essay left
evolution tutorial essay to be done (or perhaps not) heh
thank God i found back my arenes lecture notes and that i wrote down that there is arenes tutorial for holiday hmwk. cos i dont remember attending the lecture at all. i did la. just that i was busy colouring the benzene rings on it with chiehs crayons.

things that are untouched
bio holiday assignments
chem holiday assignments

revisions to be done
physics
math
chem
bio.
oh thats like everything. dang.

at least its better to put up what i have done beside what is to be done. instead of writing what is needed to be done only. jiayou jiayou.

我靠着那加给我力量的凡事都能做
i can do everything through Him who gives me strength =)



2006 will be year of hair-pulling frustrations. this is only the prelude.

first time a friend got married. hah. was quite fun. doing the mosquito skit for them. though they already knew we had a surprise skit for them -.-
now i need to prep another play. for Him this time.









im dying. haha. too much work to do! okay, i will survive.
1. tons of holiday homework
2. thanksgiving skit
3. OCIP bbq
4. blazes chalet
5. austin hill retreat
6. christmas parties
7. thanksgiving day
8. movie screening
9. swimming training

haha. im going to do it in 20 days. super GOD. super work.

new phone. new wallet. hair cut.
two hundred bucks.

utter disappointment you are. i meant it so seriously and you could just laugh it off. hey, com'on.
you can go if its a distant relative. this is for someone you know. stop lying to yourself that you can just push every single thing away. you're old enough to think. too old in fact to be doing such things already. irresponsible junk. stop wasting your life away. thats besides the point. i really hope you turn up.




to say the truth. my heart aches when i see you doing this. not for you. but aching for the person you have let down.

okay. my nose has stop running. its now bleeding. haha. i must drink more water!
im so busy these days. but i just wanna remind myself the things i am doing. hah. what am i doing now?

water programme - drinking as much water as i can every minute.. i was lidat till secondary school days. then when i try drinking water after a long while i find the taste disgusting. fell like puking. thanks to the two dollars addidas bottle i bought from thailand im drinking more. but i need more i guess, been bleeding and sneezing these days.


food programme - eat smaller meals ( i always gulp down one meal a day) and eat less. since i cant move much. but the problem is i cant remember what i ate to record in my food diary. hmm.


well, the ocip biking is cancelled but i borrowed a bike. so i have been biking to places. like to jp to buy stuff and all that. not as hurting to my back. but i guess i shouldnt strain it either. everytime i think i can go back to canoeing my back will hurt again. zzz. i cant believe i hurt it while watching television just now. zz. looks like i'll be going to swim for some time before i join the team. or perhaps sprint kayaking is not for the leisure kayaker like me.


changed my guitar strings. and it is seriously out of tune. cos i keep forgetting to buy batteries for my tuner -.-" its somehow integrated into my life now. how suttle. i never realised it till now. hmm.


i've got a lot of work to do. im dying. i need to find clothes. for michelle's wedding!! i wonder why whats so nice about skirts that im always asked to wear them. or rather. whats wrong with pants. hmm. clothes are always a headache to me.
and im still at the stupid alkenes tutorial. which i spent at least three hours on! gosh. can anyone tell me if alkenes tutorial are due next year or issit that i just didnt do it when it was supposed to do.



but busy and fulfilling is what describes my life after ocip. gone are the days i sulk and sleep late (okay, perhaps a few days are like that). I still thank You Lord for all these. and Your promise. --- rocketing off next year. dont let school tie me down from worshipping You.


耶稣我恳求袮
来改变我的生命

nose is better.
food programme is going down the drain.. i kindda ate chicken chop with rice today but i wasnt hungry.
sleep programme went down.. must pick it up again... cos i kindda slept late last night at couldnt wake up early today. which i had to.


ahh.lets see what i have got to do in by this week

1. alkenes tutorial
2. assurances
3. youth group contacts
4. think of who to do thanksgiving day skit.
5. book review for stupid issues and ideas II
6. thats about it

sold my lousy T630 away. with its faulty LCD. i fnot can get 70 bucks more. but nevermind. soon im going to get my pretty pretty Samsung phone. maybe during christmas promotions:D

haish. enough splurging this year. im gonna set up a bank account i think. to save all my money and salary. bleahh. for university.. although i still dont wish to go on studying hahah. okay. meiyi is going to give me a stern look if she reads this. shall not elaborate on my reluctance to study (or rather do any work) haha. busy! cya.

my nose rocks. its physically fit.. so fit that it can do something none of you out there can!!
what did it do? it ran non-stop from last evening til now! so fit rite. my nose rocks. haha.