this is sick. why am i plauged with injuries ever since i came to this dreaded school. you think it feels good to be a cca-ponner? why have you allowed such things to happen?? i miss np days. when school was not all about work and work but also about cca. when i could do pumpings as i like. when i can run as much as my stamina allowed and push myself beyond. people my age are at their prime. why is my body wasting away at seventeen. what do you want me to do. you promised healing. you promise victory of such injuries. why then has it been brought upon me instead of away. your blood protects. why am i not. whyy.

im sick of hearing things that i havent been taking care of myself. i never abused my body or anything what. dont atheletes push themselves beyond their limits. i believe i never overdid it. i never fainted in any parades, i never died pumping. i never ran beyond my limits for sure, since im always behind the whole squad. and only train during promotions and napfa tests. take away this. its not the first time im asking. its not a bad thing im asking for. its not that i want it for fun. its really bothering me. take it away. remove it. just take it away.please.