i am not going to blog or come online unless i have work to do.
i am not going to on the computer!
i am not going to take afternoon naps nor have any late nights.

this is the war against the blocks-crippling activities!

this is a time of intense preparation. until november 23rd.
2007 will be a blast. and its only 6 more months away!

bought
a Ghost Knife (a really weird fish - see picture)
an algae eater
a hairy snail and a pretty snail
a blue lobster (its has cobalt 2+ ions in its shell!)
ugly random fishes my dad insisted on buying
a drift wood

i hope they are happy.
and i probably know what went wrong to my firebellies. i kinda killed them giving them too much clean tap water. others had their pets in america, where tap water aint so chlorinated. stupid government killed my darlings! okay, i did. i hope there still are newts available. :'(

oh and i bought something to remove chlorine from my tank water. the lonely newt is quite healthy i hope. he doesnt tell me much. guess its depression..or may its a she. i have no idea. i love my newt.

i'm bewildered!
i just changed the water a mere 2 days ago.
and i just gave them food, which they haven't finished eating.

today i woke up and looked.. they looked as if they had died a long time ago. decomposed and all. ughh.
why??
i immediately went on the web.. and checked their lifespan.
PEOPLE HAVE THEIR FIEREBELLIES FOR 13 YEARS!
then i checked the size. perhaps mine was an old one. their grow up to 6 inches and mine is only 2??

i gave them food, gave them their beloved rock.. which they had liked for a few months.
i gave them clean water. you know, some owners change their water every two to three months. i change mine every month. why did my firebeliies die..
at least i have one consoling fact .. Cynops orientalis is the most un-endangered species of firebellied newts among its Genus. largest range and all.. all from china and asia.
left one poor guy. i know they live in groups.. im afraid he might die of loneliness!
this is a picture of a firebelly i found on the web. adorable to be, probably not to you..

我觉得我忘了
忘了爱。
忘了爱祂， 忘了爱你。

更忘了祂爱我。

今天我仿佛再次尝到那爱。
还是就是那每天他都赐下的爱， 我今天才觉悟才看见才领会才珍惜。

那天天载我上学， 安排他在附近载送我的。
那总是为我留着我最爱的位子让我在巴士上能够快乐地享受整个旅程。
那始终不放弃我的。
袮
天父

我還是求袮傾倒袮的靈。

my leg pain..between me left hip and thighs. i hurt my joints while sleeping again! hai.

today was the mothers' day outing.
mum couldnt go. so dad didnt.
mummyee's not around anyways.

was quite weird a session.
dont think i would have done all those things if my mum did go.

but i really miss meiyee. that's like the hundreth time im bloggin about that huh.
5 more days to go (=

nobody likes me
everybody hates me
i'm gonna eat some worms..

big fat juicy worms
small thin tiny worms
im gonna eat some worms..

how i miss this song with stance pris ms.

its crazy to blog three times a day.
perhaps its due to the prolonged hours of trying to compile all organic chemistry reactions into one mindmap. its been three hours!

slacky week. what have i done?
wasted time again.
tuesday i slept the day away only doing comprehension and studied chem test anyhowly.
wednesday i..i.. slept again.. only waking up at 3am. talked to xinran though:) so its a 12h time lapse from canada to singapore. okay i did group VII at 4am to 5am.
and thursday i slept through the evening!
today, i slept till noon!
okay, at least i have done RV tutorial..i better buck up on my revisions.


during sports day my oh-so-disgusted-with-school feeling came back again.
its been some time. and i felt exactly how i felt when i first came to this school.

im sorry, but they really have no creativity in cheers.
i miss the AQUA cheers to the tune of spongebob's theme song, i miss luciano's hokkien cheers. i miss cheering in english chinese malay and tamil with the whole school. i miss 05S21..I miss our yahhh cheer and lelelelel cheers.. NJ cheers were lame but original. i dont know why hwachong can't. in fact, hc peeps are smarter than NJCians arent they. so much for playing hard and studying hard.
i think its quite unglam to copy RJ cheers. though they are nicer of course. cheering it back at home and not infront of the RJ peeps doesnt really make a difference to cheering it right in their face.

and the facs just copy each other cheers. its nice that the first fac who cheered it thought about it. but since everyone else copied it, it makes it quite nauseating already. this is the best example of piracy kills creativity i guess.

or perhaps again its all about my prejudice.

As I look at the world
I begin to dream of the future
What’s yet to be
Your love so strong for everyone
You made us all in Your image

And You saved the day
When Jesus came
And You took away all my sin and shame
And You made us right again


You came from God above
The Father’s only Son
Saved my soul
Made me new
Now I live for You


My heart is alive
and my spirit free, In the Saviour
Gave His life for me
By Your Word, We will be the light of the world
My Father shine Your light in me


I’ll stand on the Word
Be a light in the world
When Your praises are heard
We’ll be singing

i've got a pitcher plant!
walked all the way from serene centre to bontanical gardens to buy it. in the sweltering heat, smart gf 'confirmed' that the wrong bus was the right one and so we ended up walkin instead of taking the bus.

anyways, we got our pitcher plant! we were initially wondering if mrs goh was wrong about her 'tissue culture sold at the botanical gardens visitor centre shop'. well, she was just inaccurate. it was another shop at the orchid gardens. there was no venus fly trap, to my disappointment, but the pitcher plant is good too.

i refused to tell my dad the price of the plant on the way home. he guessed that it was five bucks. haha. its almost thrice that amount. eeks. thankfully i just got my pay..

that leaves me no excuse to slack off the rest of this week. so precious and i have wasted one day of it already by slacking away yesterday. i'm quite sick of things.. i was actually sick of eating and swallowing my food everyday. oh mann. i think i whine a bit too much. if meiyee was here she would have asked me to stop whining definitely.. ayes. how much i miss her.

i want to do something crazy.
but i dont have the time.
so i figured out i could do it after As.

i want to go out with joanna qihan shiu and stand in the mrt train and pretend there are handrails where there isnt and hold on to this imaginary pole together, trying to sway naturally with the trains jerky movements.

i want to bring my two glass tanks to the aquarium shop uncle and ask for a gigantic tank in exchagne at a lower price.
i want to build an underwater lego empire for my lobster and tortoise.

i want to buy venus fly trap seeds from the singapore botanical gardens and plant them next to my fish tank.

i want to go to the largest aquarium shop in singapore (which name i forgot) and buy exotic fishes to fill my lego empire.

i want to get my tanned bronze skin again.
i want to go cycling under the sun all day and cycle from jurong west to sentosa and then to ecp, then camp at night at ecp and then cycle back home the next day. with perhaps one or two other close friends.

i want to find a green pasture on this buzzy mainland where i can look at the busy people, yet not be seen by them.
i want to sit under the beeg blue sky and enjoy the sights and sounds this little city island has to offer.

i want to take a break and pack up my room from the viral examination notes strewn all over my room.

i want to wake up just as the sun is warming up the earth, and wake up to an orange filled room.

i want to wake up everyday and simply read the papers and sip my morning milo and enjoy a few slices of toast.

i want to be relieved of the terrible sores of my shoulders and backs.

i want to go jogging every morning and then go swimming, all alone. taking my own sweet time.. with nobody around to disturb me.

i want to go to borders/kino and read books for free all day long. and write poems in a cafe during breaks.

i want my four As for As. so i cannot have all the above now.
6more months and counting..

I heard of this incredible person, who could do many things others couldn't. I heard of this person who could be so many things at the same time.. I heard of fantastic scholars who could do 2 Olympiads 3 S papers and 4 As and ace everything. and i thought, wow.. that's so amazing. Then I heard of people who could do 3 Master degreees simultaneously right here in Singapore..and i thought. wow, how does he manage his time. and he really does well in all three of his courses.
These people are amazing! and just hearing of their resume and stuff would make your jaw-drop.
It's like..'siow! can liddat one meh?!'

I also heard of this person. who can listen to few million people talking at the same time and can answer them all.. this person can actually speak all the languages in world!! and with perfect grammar and all. studying geography, physics, history, biology, ecology, psychology, physiology, literature in all languages, music, art, geology, econs.. and what ever subject there is, He surpasses everyone in terms of knowledge in these fields.

He gives good advice, accompanies me when im loney, helps me when i'm in need.. financially or emotionally. He taught me physics when I was preparing for my promos last year. He's super cool too!! I heard of Him, and I'm sure you have too.. then I got to know Him..who was everything I heard about and is more than my little brain could imgaine.

Wouldn't you want to meet such an amazing person?

He is my Provider, Healer, Teacher, Comforter, Saviour, Shephard..

He told me He is the Way the Truth and the Light.

He isn't some amazing professor from some other country, He is also in Singapore!
It really is quite easy to come before Him.. why refuse?

i kinda wasted the day away. by sleeping when i didnt really need to.
ayes.

there are many things to do.
there is so little time to do.
there is so much to change and improve.
there is so little drive to make it happen.

i miss mummyee

a lot

it's about 20 more days before she'll return.
as usual there's so much i want to say but i'll say nothing about it to her in the end.

my usual listing of work to push myself hopefully:
Nervous system tutorial
AC tutorial

Nervous system mindmap
Excretion mindmap
Trigonometry (3D + sine and cosine rule + identitites)
DNA studies

ok you may think im crazy cos effectively i only have two tutorials to do and the other are self imposed. but really, time is not enough already.
2more months is blocks! (which for the case of bio and physics is testing all year one stuff plus some of this year stuff) how much do you have to study them for the next two months man.
okay, and blocks aside. i wont anyhow study this time but aim for clear understanding. cos even if i fail this time. at least i cleared some topics once and for all. instead of revising topics halfway and not really understanding cos that will mean the remaining other two months to prelims would be twice as ardous.

i lack the sense of urgency man. argh. chiong! RV mugger spirit always trives. hahah.