well, i just ate that pretty pooh bear choc bernard brought back from tokyo disneyland.
i know about the chemical and biological contents of chocolates that makes you feel happier and all. but not all chocolate achieve that effect.
pooh bear chocolates of course do work.
cos pooh bear always smiles at me though i am chewing his ear in my mouth. :)

mango puddings serve the same purpose as pooh bear chocolates for me some time back.
chillled and glistering under the light, i always eat it when im alone. slowly and carefully scooping out every part of it. so that it looks pretty even down to the last bit.

I am just in the midst of piles of revision again.

i feel a need. a need to spur myself on again to go forward and complete the revision schedule. i am so behind time cos of the party. and i hope so much that it was all worth it.
not to mention my bad sleepy habit.

somehow after blocks two i feel that the results are not dependent on covering how much of the syllabus but dependent on the effort made to do so. and God, who searches my heart, and sees all.. grants me what He the desires of my heart.

I was so worried cos there was only a week plus after the church camp ended. and i was turning frantic. even to the days of blocks, I was still discovering massive parts of the syllabus i carelessly left out.

but the Lord says do not worry. and so I will not this time. and I hope I can.
after seeing what He can do. I don't worry that I can't but know that He can.

all these I knew long ago. and experienced only recently. I really want to know what's next in my life, Lord.

三十功名尘与土 八千里路云和月