Wow! I never thought i could live without blogging for so long.
In any case, school's starting. and i don't even know if I'm in NUS.
I have ignorantly not accepted my offer to NUS science thinking that it was not neccessary since i was going to appeal. And my appeal was denied (as expected, i'm not particulary sad or anything) but i'm a lil gan cheong i must say about the uncertainty of a place in NUS. Or rather, in any university.
I'm going down on Monday..to ask and make sure i'm in NUS. how? I don't know. May the Lord grant me His peace and wisdom :)

I'm feeling a little stressed these days.
Stressed and afraid of the uncertainty lying ahead of me.
Not only i abt uni life. but also about loads of other things.. like my church youth group and things not convenient to be posted (LOL)
I guess uni life - the academic part of it is all that it is. social campus life ain't for me. It's too silly to waste my precious time on unfruitful fleeting friendships, or rather accquaintances i would prefer to put it.
I've been repeatingly emphasising on this importance of time over on the phone while chatting with jo.
and probably i come across as a super busy person, and perhaps a lil haughty.
But no, time really is precious. And until we really see that our time is a resource God gives to us to do His will, just as He gives us financial power to bless, we will only continue to waste this resource by watching unedifying movies, daydreaming etc.
some talents God gives to each accordingly like the parable where the master gives one servant 10 talents, another 5 and yet another 2. But there are resources that God gives equally to all.. and that's like our time. Everyone has 24h a day. except those non-existent Martians who have about 48h a day. So it's only what a good steward to do to manage and make sure every moment of our life is spent effectively, fruitfully and to the benefit of His Kingdom.

it's been really fulfilling and joyful for me to have stuck to waking up early and spending my personal time well. though there are areas to improve as always. but as dearest Meiyi says.. we're getting there :)

I've also been quite thankful for some people in my life:) hah, like wen and laoma and shimu and all.. though its been a truly uncomfortable thing to do last night..but well, it wasn't as bad as i thought i guess. haish, i should've listened to michelle's wise words. to a certain extent, i brought this upon myself.. oh wells, im going to get stretch stress..to rise in stature when Happy Lee's on the way. and to tackle a certain other something.

I need HELP! ughh.. i dont understand why things can be so complicated. why are my intentions misread so badly..WHYYYY. ugh~ maybe my only friends should be my mentors.. cos there's really no girls around anyway. that can really communicate at my level. where's my David, where's my Jonathan?!!!!
okay, that's a lil off the point. hahah.
hope everyone's fine.
i've so not been in touch with people these days.
Love you ying, love you pam, love you kim, love you jo (though you dont even know my blog exists LOL)

-Faith Grace Tan
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