HALLELUJAH! ok, so the NUS episode is over. And at least I do have a confirmed place in the University already.
Oh wells, people are still asking me Science can do what.
and my answer is: "if i get first class honours i can wash test tubes, otherwise i can get an office job"
but really, i dont want either.

So my sister suggested that i pester the University for a place in Pharmacy. Which, I am quite keen. Just that I don't know how to go about doing such stuff/ pester people. I just tend to 'orh' whatever they say to me.
Like cannot go medicine, orh.
Cannot go pharmacy, orh.
Not like im very glad but, what to do?
*Shrugs* I hope my sis do make true her words in helping draft a letter to NUS.

All is in Your hands.祢掌管世上万有，也要使我心平安。

Mum's coming back tomorrow night, pity i have tuition if not i'd very much like to go pick her and give her a MONSTROUS hug!! haha, and squeeze all the air out of her. :p
I told her I'd finish all the work I have on hand and have nothing to do before she comes back. But, i'm still like far behind -.- :(
惭愧惭愧

School's really starting and shit is coming. Hmm i'd have to remove all my negativity about things.
It's really gonna be a difficult thing to balance, but I'm glad shimu & pastor has been innoculating me with neccesary vaccines and antibiotics for University life.

Darling Shixuan just sms-ed me lately, to ask if i would like to join some air weapons club in NUS. and Jonana dear is staying in hostel alone. Guess I could pop by/ deposit my things in her room :) Nice friends, RVians! hahah..its this group of friends that are always so close to heart though we do not keep in touch regularly. And i miss RV days so so so much!有立化的人就有立化的温情。人的亲切与真实，恐怕这社会上其他地方也找不着了。

如此多的选择，花花绿绿的生活方式。我心里要选择...那讨神喜悦的道路。
I hope I don't get sucked away by those CCA things and all..Neglecting studies (which i dont think is much of a worry for myself) or neglecting my ministry. It's just so easy, to submerge into the pseduo happening University life of clubbing and chatting and CCAs and what not, but miss the whole point of living - purpose. And even self, is an aimless pursuit.

I'm reading this really inspiring book now..[ Rees Howells, Intercessor ]
no doubt its much easier to read than Pastor Bailey's books..haha, but something really caught me today as i read it on the way to work: the Holy Ghost spoke to Rees "to be willing to be made willing, is the same as being willing" as Rees struggled to give his life and his will to the Holy Ghost.
as the Lord loves, He chastises. The difficult road and the narrow way. This will never be easy, nobody said it would be. and I still want to be on this road.

I haven't been living out the Word..I just do what I like, say what I say.. and do some things I know I shouldn't be doing. Forgiveness is a challenge.. and I someone said this lately to me..forgot through sermons or what.. but the person was talking with regards to another matter and he/she said this sentence, which was only what i remember "even a little bit of unforgiveness forbids our entrance into the Kingdom of God" and when I could have been nice last night, I just chose to be nasty. I had all the right to be, and I did. So what if u have the right to do something, could you have the strength NOT to? Haish. I would have shook my head at myself a million times if i was looking at what I was doing.

愿那赐力量的灵，平安喜乐 的灵 与我同在。