it's been an eventful and uneventful holiday.
the events were rather significant but other than them, i've been mugging at home for the past few days.. unproductively but taking this at a slow pace.. I kindda like it cos my CAs are still 2 days away. Reality have not set in. Since potential competitors and friends haven't appeared in front of me for the past 9 days :)

2nd September: Pamela Foo
26th September 2007: Kimberle & Stephanie
28th September 2007: Chieh Hwee


Conclusion: Sending people off causes a spiraling into depression
It's really sad to send people off. At first it didnt feel like anything...Pamela then Kimberle.. and today was Chieh. And as it dawned on me this afternoon that they were just leaving one by one.. it was a thought so unbearable i couldn't continue studying my Distribution Coefficients and Heterocycle nomenclatures anymore.

Wednesday was fun. With just a tinge of sadness, with kimbo nimbo leaving us. We (chieh, hw, ying & I) played UNO on the train home. Little did it occur to me that chieh won't be here to do that with us today. It was as though it was J1 again. playing bridge and asshole daidee like nobody's business (and of course in J2 when that stupid 360deg cam had to be above our class bench)
Today more people came, cos the guys could book out and rush over.
And it was sadness, with a tinge of happiness.
but it was just so nice to see fellow 78ers again. We love 78! and we are so special cos we are of the 78 breed.

It's probably a need for human beings to seek identity, to hold on to something in the midst of waves of need-to-dos that often throw us off our feet. We seek to be something, lest we realize we aren't anything. Which today I learnt of myself - a person who really cherishes relationships, sometimes fearing comittment lest departure comes. And what I know, and I must learn, is to rely on God solely. As the only source that can satisfy me. Not through friendships or any other relationships and neglecting God. There's always this emptiness inside everybody. And until we learn to admit and accept that.. we'd probably busy chasing every fleeting thing we hope could satisfy us.

One thing I hate - is the emptiness that comes after hype. That always leaves me teary, for no apparent reason. cos everybody's gone. that's why. after all the together-ness, and fun and ra-ra-ing. everybody will just go on. just like that. and it has always been this desire in me - to find a worthy friend. I know I found Him.. now it's time to know Him better:)

There is no one like You, there is no one like You.. Jesus

somehow this line of a hillsong is just playing in my head right now.

What if I were to leave one day.
What would I miss the most? I guess I'd miss tons of relationships, tons of local food to a lesser extent, and still.. tons of friends. I wish when such a day really comes.. I'd be able to say with all my heart - "The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want" - physically, in material needs & emotionally.

Learn to let somethings go. And make the best of whatever we have - cos nothing we have will really stay forever.

Thanks to efficiency of our NUS CBLC I am able to blog! :)
Hah, yes.. my computer still doesn't like the not-so-new google-blogger collaboration. so I can't blog with my PC at home.

I'm sick! It's a warning to all out there who are too busy to remember to drink water. I failed to drink a mouth of plain water for about a week. and this is the outcome. Applaud to my courage to prove the fact to the world!! :D

Pam's gone. and probably happy in faraway Canada? I think she's like 7h behind us. Couldn't really catch her on MSN that time cos we were both drifting in and out of our sleep & I was too tired to figure out what time it was over at her timezone :p So I guess she'll visit this place someday. SO, HI PAMELA!! How's everything over at UT? :) Hope your modules are all like super fun. :):) Wonder if you found a church there also :) May the Lord bless you and keep you!

Darling Ying's coming over to my place tmr in between my tutorial and tuition time :S I do hope we have enough time to sew our things. We aren't pro at such home-econs stuff & RV didn't really give us a lot of training. I can't remember how to work the silly machine or fish some thread out anymore -.- I think hand sew is better. if I know how to end properly so that the thing won't fall apart :S Movie-making is definitely more suitable for the both of us. But anw, it's gonna be worth it! Cos we're doing it for a beautiful young lady - both inner & outer. But of course the former is greater.

The last Sunday was a super atypical one. Cos of our tenth anniversary we went to NTU Alumni to have our service and lunch. Which of course, I didn't get to eat much.. I was in charge of the children's section, along with many other youth. The children were SO SO SO adorable!! :)
We did some craft that Jianlong had. You know the kind that you have a picture framework ona n aluminium plate, then you squeeze colour on segregated areas of the pictures, then put in the oven until it steams and u can peel of your picture and stick on windows and stuff liddat. I never played that before Sunday. So maybe most of you are clueless about it, or am i just suaku. Anw, every kid had their own pictures.. some had more than one. Then we played games, ate MacDonalds for lunch.. I was runing in and out of the restaurant to get a lil bite of the 8 course lunch of which I only had 4 courses? Had no idea what the rest was. :S

Yupp. Children are just so adorable. and Sunday had left me thinking if I would end up as a teacher next time? Aww.. children everyday ..If I had all the energy I'd probably would.. I'm not paedophillic like my fellow Pharmers claim I am. But I do wanna hug the children when I see them! Oh, and for ying kim and chieh.. you wanna see Happy's pictures?? can go our church youth blog and see. He's like super cute.. but i think he looks quite different everyday. Children grow super fast eh? I hope I can see him on Sunday :) Lovely children.

After the anniversary was this little restricted gathering up at the 8th level. Which I kindda regretted going. Not a lot but, a little. Didn't do much there, socialised a bit a bit. I had a really tiring week + i was sick and all. Plus plus a certain someone that made it so sian to be there. Since I didn't sit with the youth, I couldn't just deflate and had to pretend to be entertained or relatively joyful while sitting there and doing nothing. Well, at least I could help liying with some of the MAF games ideas :) Some people just aren't sensitive to certain things. Can't believe I got arranged to sit at that table and told that I should've sat with the youth with that certain someone. Haish. no, not angry, not bitter.. just don't understand why things aren't made easier for me. I thought she should have known. Maybe it's just me being too self-centered.
I'm not too affected, but neither wanting much contact ya. No need to dig at me for not sitting there. I'll just live with it anyway.

Life's been great:D
Love yous, 05S78-ers, Happy family, Splash, Wen, Mum & a whole bunch of other people who don't know my blog exists :)