~ playlist: emo songs & high school musical 2's theme song ~

haha, its the school's out feeling

its the 'i-want-to-lay-on-the-beach-all-day-long' feeling

its the time to clear out the emotional trash kind of feeling

and also the physical trash of notes and stuff.

i thank God for bringing me through this exam period. maybe for some of my peers, studies has sometimes been a bore, a chore, and a horrid thing to do. but studies has been my life, my passion and an unhealthy obsession for me to prove myself worthy & useful. until i met God :)

so, this exam period. I probably tipped the balance all over the wrong side.

I was rather passive, and my studying was only complete for 3 out of 5 modules. my social work, i didnt even study at all and woke up the day it was tested to just browse through the textbook. but i still thank God that i got through it. i screwed up my Anatomy cos i missed out a few questions and didn't answer them when I could! but its all done. I think God has indeed preserved my heart, that understanding true peace is beyond circumstance. Though, they are but small things in a person's life - studies and grades. But, this has been my weak point.

anyway, i ended exams officially yesterday afternoon. and went mildy 'high' in NUS with Grace Hoo. okay, i was crazy and she was trying hard to hide somewhere and pretend not to know me. We were walking past one of the street soccer courts, and i just shouted very loud, and raised my hands in the air: 'GOALLLL!' then apparently everybody stared at me. which i didnt really notice cos i, erm, i don't know why i didn't. But anw, we went to Vivo city - what else right. and bough KEKE. i show you guys a pic of him next time. He's $1 only, and very retarded looking. I was very thirsty when I bought him. 

check list #1: cell group - attended! on Friday night after eating my last dinner with Grace Hoo. She'd be in hong kong now already. having a holiday.

I'd be flying to mission trip on Friday, and she'd be back from HK after that, when i'm back she'd have left for her Yunana medical trip again. haha, i think i'd see her next year if we even meet before school commences! :S

check list #1a: out of the plan , pleasant surprise!

i got a adhoc job today doing some little admin stuff. and earned enough money to cover the dress i bought for runhua & meisi's wedding. hee :) happiness.

and it was great.

经一事长一智。I think I learnt a lot unconsciously working in church.

although shimu and mum and pastor and ge keep saying that.

可以说我是今天才感受比较深刻吧。

because, I would not talk to a stranger properly in a formal setting. and will quite paiseh and do some rude or weird stuff.

but i think i'm relatively comfortable with it now. since so many random people walk in to the office from english side. :)

and not to mention the need to answer calls and questions that i have no idea about.

anw, i hope my attachment in year two will be a good learning experience and a good testimony to my colleagues anyhow. :)

haha, i have so many plans ahead.

my man can plan 1001 plans, and God can say another thing.

It's really important to know God's heart in what we do, and I really desire to know His plans :) sometimes i buckle, and go my own wayward side. But I hope to see people my age, get to even see this and honour God, even more than I do now. It's really a good thing, a splendid thing to walk in His will, cos He desires the best for us. 

I intend to re-take up canoeing.

I may, I may not. and if I may, I may excel, I may not. 

But it's my joy to be in the ocean and the sun.

you know that time i go kelong. I really felt so happy so so happy I haven't been so for a long time. I really love the sea, I love the unclouded sky and the shining sun. Girls may say its gonna get them dark. And I think what I dislike is not about being fair, but I just miss the times under the sun. drill, kayak.. whatever. I love the sunrays beating on my skin. God, I've been in in air-coned office for most of my holidays. the longest holidays i ever had in my life, or will ever have i think. I love the sun and i want to go out and do this thing, tell me if this pleases You...

i still want to thank God for the mentors i have in my life. 

these people are the ones who showed me the love of God before i knew what it was in words.

thanks mum for taking time (off your sleeping hours) to talk to me last night. though you'd never read this, hahah. 

picking up kimberle tomorrow, havent done anything today (with regards to my packing plans)

ying's coming for service :)

and so is happy boy

which is why

haha

havent typed such a long entry in ages.

:) happiness (: