met a friend today, who said that i looked really tired and down and out..
i guess you can really tell huh?

So the Lord said to Cain," Why are you angry? And why has your countenance fallen? If you do well, will you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin lies at the door. And its desire is for you, but you should rule over it."

i decided to give it a try.
come what may, but i think i should do to my utmost best what i have now before i can be sure i can take on something new. not give things up and exchange.

i realised how little i have done and how silly i was thinking that i was a busy person.
there's much more discipline i have to instill in my life. much much more.