last night went to ying's house supposedly for movie marathon.
super tired, ended up sleeping at 4am. goodness.
in the end i watched protege myself on ying's laptop.. and subsequently huiwen and ying joined me.
super nice show..and very fast paced. didn't feel like 1h40min, though it was.

haven't watched a good show for quite a long time.


and wu yan zu was super shuai even though he was unkempt and jumping from the building being chased by cops.

the show supposedly had a lot of gore. said hw cos she went to the movies to watch, which i wanted to. but apparently this DVD is like non-pirated stuff from China and is censored. So hengs, the gore quite gross. like rats running around a drug addict's partially decomposed body.
I still prefer those in the Anatomy Hall at NUS.. :S

but I am impressed by China. Her government's censorship MAKES SO MUCH SENSE as compared to ours. Though they apparently down played the nice ending scene which was rather artistic and made a huge impression to hw, it was for moral reasons. Cos they didn't wanna show how the needle enters the body, lest people watch and now how to 'enjoy' drugs in China. safeguarding the young, unlike sg censorship.. its the cut across board XX kind of scene, cut, YY kinda scene don't cut. stupid.

and the movie ratings. seemingly more levels then our old PG and RA, is full of crap.
ANYHOW rate. why don't they just hire me.

I came home and watched another hour of cartoon then slept.

I have thrown discipline outta the window this week.
and It won't be easy getting it back.
I have thrown some else outta the window, to try to leave without it.
Last night, I realised that I am no longer what I was 4 years ago. I can't live out my present lifestyle. Can't.
But I don't know how to regain.
It's scary how a single misconceived idea can bring you this far in a mere matter of days.
and possible undo what has happened to me in years.

what's next?

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