i think im over with my crush.
i think the whole thing just co-incided with my LH surge and Progesterone increase.
ah ha.

crushes at this age seems rather silly and funny to me.
LOL..i think the last time i had a crush was like secondary school!
goodness.
i can picture myself with wrinkles and saggy cheeks already.

studying in school is much better at least i dont break high scores on my computer nor sleep in late. :)
but its bad cos i still day dream.
but its much much better :)

i bet two unexpected people today.
hmm... maybe God brought them around cos He knew I'd be bored being all alone the whole day.

you know, God gave me my first A in NUS yesterday. :)
I'm glad.
and am reminded.. that God gives, and takes..
and that grades really don't matter much in life..

i remember reading something before..
about in late 1930s, a young man in England would have lived life, planning to study, work, get married.. on how to get a wife, provide for her and have great beautiful dreams like that..
never to know that just a few years later Britain would be in war.
and the very routine of life would be disrupted and all that he had lived for, and planned, or dreamed about would suddenly matter not.

i wonder.. if we are living at such a time as then.
i think.. what i wanna do after i graduate, sometimes i think about a non-existent perfect boyfriend..and what if.. we are just a few years away from war? or turmult?
that what i fantasise about now won't make any more sense...

so focus my life on things that truly matter...eternally

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