After the past 3 weeks of competition
and giving up on living up to expetations, I've found Good Friday, a really good day to pack up my room and sort out some thoughts.

now, Canoe Polo has ceased and I have conveniently or inconveniently pushed away all assignments from church.
I am now just a student.

I've been couped up in my world, studying.
studying eating watching tv occassionally. then hitting the books.
the dry content is still dry
the hard to remember drug names are still never ending and ever-so-confusing
dimenhydrinate diphenhydramine chlorphenhydramine and diphenoxylate are really different drugs!

but anyway, I feel so much more relaxed today :)
just being a student.
I now know, a step further, that student life is really to be cherished and relatively worry-free.

though my intestines have been acting weird again these few days.
I certainly hope for the best.
I hope definitely that my defiance has not incurred wrath.
nor my bitterness brought about any calamity on myself.
I'd get a check up only after exams. which is still a while more to go.

幸福 is in simplicity.
and I felt much so today, when I get to be fetched to and from school being so old already. and have home - cooked meals.
it's a rare treat. and so i know today, is a rare day of coincidences.
i can count with my 2 hands days I get home-cooked food every year.

I'm back to the basics of my life - studying.
and what usually is the most stressful peroid of my life has now become a sanctuary of peace and solitude.
I wish You'd come too. like You used to. if You'd like to, still.

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