well, i haven't been the goody good girl studying as much.
but this semester, i really got the real stuff of what being a pharamcist is like.
and i can say i like what i am studying, don't mind learning about all these.
I'm looking forward to one of the few careers that stems from the purpose of helping others lead better lives :)
I know that under the 9 to 5 job, there should be something more than just mere earning money.
If not, then being a tai-tai would be the most fulfilling thing on Earth.
I have left home only 1 time since I reached home from Sunday after service,
had a drink with my lovely neighbour and she pei-ed me walk around Guardian and listen to me guess what's in each product before I flipped over to see the package label.
I think it's gonna be a lifelong occupational hazard.
That flipping to the back of the package label or looking for the package insert would be my instinct.
Well, at least product packaging would not have much of an effect on me any more :)
Hurhur, my macbook is cranking up and so is the nus website.
I have been living off other people's laptops to check my emails.
now I'm using my old trusty desktop PC once again.
I used to think it was beyond hope, but thank God it revived after its long dormancy.
can't help but think of my ex when I use it thoughAnw, about my petition pending.I guess it will soon come to a conclusion.
I could be, moving on into another phase of my life. and it feels like I have failed this phase terribly. starting off well and ending off terribly. It seems so for every phase of my life, and it is all because of troublesome humans and interpersonal relationships. it always drains me, always.
I feel so apathetic to them now, I don't even want to be related.
I just moved the entire group from the top of my MSN contact list downwards. to think we were once peers, friends, and maybe I one-sidedly thought that these would be my forever friends. Or so I heard from the older ones.
I doubt I would be speaking much to them at all if I am released.
But if I were, I wouldn't know where else to go.
I don't belong anywhere in where I am to belong.
No Bread in the House of God.
I am part of them, and a leader only in name.
I wonder, don't we all need peers to support and strengthen us? other than God?
maybe because they are all married people and they do have their source of support already.
are true friends only a previllege of the young?
I feel so neglected. Like what I say is not really being understood, or taken real.
until now.
which seems the only issue is to release or not to release me.
or maybe i have misunderstood.
but the home should be MORE than doing things right or mere responsibility.
there are things urgent and at hand that should be dealt with right away.
but when there is slack time, other issues should be addressed.
relationships should be fostered.
time should be spent without stress without requirement without schedule
with all amount of love.
where is the true stuff?!?!?!?!?!!?!give it to me!!!!!!!!!!Labels: ministry, mugging ramblings