Seclusion. or rather Resting from everything.
It's the end of week zero since exams ceased.
Sort of getting things done, all the nitty gritty things, like packing things up and all that has been accumulated in my business.
I can't belive more than 7 months zoomed past me without having a life.
Honestly, I always have loads of pictures to load and back up and fun.
but this time, 2009 had so little pictures it didn't warrant a folder to be dedicated to it.
NO wonder I am burnt out, tired out, and opting out.
I am on a quest, to find perhaps the most important thing in my life - purpose.
Some people may think I have found it. But no, I haven't.
I was just doing the best at what I liked or what I thought I ought to do.
That was all what I
could do.
Now, I have pushed all things aside to find out, what is it that I
should be doing, what I was
made for.
Like I said, I really think I will bounce back up.
I am on the way up, new beginning and a new start.
Finding my way to the fog, which I am sure would end soon.
Friday's prayer meeting was good and not good.
Good for everybody but not good for me. Not not good for me, but I was not good.
I think I am very petty, but sorry, the word "friend" means more to me than to most people.
I can't imagine saying, okay let's be friends but not being as close.
cos friends = close.
I can't "give it to God", forgive and say we are friends.
I would have to say in the person's face, I probably forgive u but u shall be ousted from my life.
and because nobody says that in people's face, I don't talk about it.
Loyalty is a
basic requirement not a higher level condition for best friends.
Betrayal is a downright despicable act.
I probably would eventually find strength to forgive all of you all, but that will take some time.
I know I will find it somehow, because man has no right to hold grudges when Christ didn't, doesn't and won't.
My quest will to be find passionate young souls, on fire, real and seriously sincere.
My quest will be for a life-long mission and a mark to hit.