as the examinations draw to a close, I am forced to face up to reality.
That the temporal comfort of the four walls of my room cannot nullify the turmoil and issues festering in my life. Today I was so excited when I watched a fairly ordinary drama about a fairly extraordinary woman.

And I realised that inside of me, I have always held certain people in awe.
Perhaps it started when someone just bought me a book on Extraordinary Women, and having known some extraordinary women.

Coincidentally, all the stories, are true or intertwined with truth, history of war times and hardships. I guess these are the women that inspired me. And was also why I loved reading Marie Curie's biographies...and was always so enchanted by books on her. My utter dislike for physics, especially at history of discovering atoms and elements, could not deter me from opening books and reading about her life. Women who stood up for a cause amidst their own difficulties - Marie Curie was not rich nor healthy but rallied people to donate to medical equipment for the war. I'm inspired.

And as much as I think I need a rest and a break to sort out my thoughts, I think I would like to purpose to bounce back as a super-woman-wannabe:)
I shall systematically, critically analyse my utter defiant behaviour and to sort out the thoughts I have jumbled all inside of me.
I shall look at the positive thoughts and to question if I truly believe in them and if there is a reason I believe in it, instead of just taking it from what other people say.
I shall look at the negative thoughts and purpose not to be as the youth of my generation. I shall renouce the maglinity of my mind and choose to believe the good side of things.

All these, by the grace and guidance of the Living GOD through prayer and waiting upon Him, I believe the worst would be over.

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