I guess I thrive on a break now and then nowadays.
perhaps after my decision that I am not a robot.
which is a very true reflection of myself.
but some times i wonder if man could be more diligent and if this is the lazy nature of me talking out loud.

but anyway, i have been late for my pharmaco lectures ever since last semester. and this semester is no exception. at least for the past 1 week. who ask it to be 8am. okay, excuses.

tomorrow is no school day. and today ended at 4pm :)
(thats very early cos mondays are 8am to 8pm with only 2h lunch break)
It will be a nice alone time with myself and God. and the academic work that has piled up.
1001 chapters to read, a project to complete, forum discussions to read all by this week. or rahter by tmr. because thats my only free day.
but i enjoy it. cos today is hardly over and i still have tomorrow.

I guess I have been re-evaluating myself and seeing myself in a new light after so much depression, wallowing in self-pity, and so immersed with myself.
yup, ying... it's about myself, me and I, just like you blogged.
ha, but I guess it's a neccessary obsession once in a while. I realised I have changed.

I now pefer to take a laid back, slow and steady approach to walk to long road.
I believe.. after searching myself... that though I feel that I have failed and am inadequate by evident circumstance and situations, I am made for something greater than this.

and what I have gone through. and have not fully come out of, is nothing but training for the future.
however, my arms and legs are still feeble after being a lame lump of fat throughout the holidays. spiritually and physically. so I am standing up now. but feeling weird standing. I havne't garnered sufficient momentum to take steps.
standing up is good enough for now. and when I am tired standing. days like tmr would be great for me to sit down and rest. till I am used to standing, will I try to walk, and then run.

now it's time to do things the right way.
the relying-on-God way.
the way that lasts forever.

anyway, my elective - film and history - is quite cool cos we watch movies and write reports and have no final exams. (: i naturally think quite a lot when i watch movies anyway.. so i usually bust the word limit. i wonder if there's quality in my thoughts though.

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