Yesterday... as i posted. was a hermit day.
and so i didn't sleep all night after that post... and proceeded to church.

Today i went to prayer meeting not because i was on duty.
Today I went to service with no stress.
and enjoyed it. almost every moment! the worship... the prayer.. and even baby sitting the good lil friend. who was very naughty today...

and for some reason, every time during communion day i am taking care of 小朋友... and haven't had it consecutively for some time already. so today i slipped in and did manage to partake in it. though a bit too rush for my comfort. I'm glad I could take care of the child, not feel irritated, teach him a few lil things, have a bit of fun, and still worship God in the midst of all.
Taking note that i haven't slept since 1pm yesterday... I would think today I have been just one step more in resting in the Lord.
It's wonderful... no more striving.. but things get done... but you are not tired out.

Like today. After service I finally found a khakia to eat with me can.
yah, everybody has a lunch buddy nowadays... and the people of my type don't exists in this part of the body of Christ.
I had a long and rare talk with my good sister. whose relationship i was honestly at wits' end for a long time. like being detached, not in touch... and somehow everytime we talk there was some kind of barrier.. :S

Subsequently... I was 30min late for the YN09 post trip meeting. which few turned up.. but was good. and then late for 30min for the CNY Reunion dinner (extended family).
Yupp.. but amidst all the rushing to and fro. from jurong to katong to tanah merah to Jookoon... everything was peaceful and unlike the old me.
I would be so frustrated, tired and thankful that the day is over. but now i have the strength to reflect, Thank God, and rest well :) physically...

I am lately reflecting on parenting methods. how the church i am in is rather paternalistic to me, because i have rebellious streak. and that they are of a different era... and i am wondering what kind of a 'parent' i am.... which i belive determines or shapes the way i will speak to people, like people who are struggling to understand God... because we are all children.. not fully understanding God's ways yet.
and so is a parent. Who learns parenting as a child grows.

fuzzy fuzzy standpoints and perspective. But i believe in experriential learning.

for one, i think singaporean parents (and any church leadership)...
need to acknowledge God's work as Sovereign in every person's life.. respecting them as individuals. and thus, not having a worrisome controlling tinge their actions.

yup. i believe parents and leadership tend to do so sometimes. but really... out of love.
nobody is perfect.
and i am merely forming & shaping opinions here. they may change over time as I desire myself to grow. do not judge me or misunderstand my heart... whoever is reading this (:

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