Before i knew it my attachment is already ending.
I think I learnt so much more in this attachment than all my modules added up together.
Although I learnt that I really am a learn-on-the-job kindda person, I also learnt my job next time is really one that I cannot make such mistakes.
I might be already 22, but self-discovery is still important for me to know how to navigate in this urban society. Perhaps it is like some says, self-discovery is a life-long process.
Perhaps, my efforts and hardwork in the past, is just like how I do my assignments... unguided, unplanned and therefore futile.
I'm giving the church meetings a miss this week, although it has been on since wed, thur, fri and sat... I only went for the thur one. But I think it is important to sit back and think carefully and re-evaluate my situation in the many aspects of my life.
I wish I had a mentor in my life... not just in work.
I used to have one, but it's been so long I guess I am on my own now.
I'm pretty glad I gotta come to SGH instead of NCC actually. Because indeed I can try out the life, and anticipate my ability to commit to other things during my pre-reg.
I never knew pre-reg-ers really just do what Pharmacists do on a daily basis... and it's kindda scary to think that in one year I'd have to be able to do all that calmly, confidently and accurately.
I'm inspired by the Pharmaciststs & their dedication to their work. but boggled by the opinions of many with regards to our 6 week stint.
Maybe I should really do without my inferiority complex of always thinking that others are better than me...but thinking that I am better than others is a pitfall I want to avoid.
I would have expected some classmates who are more excellent than me to have carried themselves in a better manner than I have seen (or mistakenly seen)... or maybe stress and difficulty really brings out the worst in Man. Or maybe it's only in such situations we see who people really are. This is just one whole saddening mess...
Despite everybody's complaints of the workload... including me. I think everybody complains out of a different attitude... and listening further does separate the good and not so good motives.
I'm glad I'm enjoying it and almost sure to join this workplace in about a year.
It's just depressing to see that people who are trying to help us are facing so much unwarranted hostility from us.
Labels: on being a pharmacist
也许是真的吧。
也许我不应该这样 － 老是在心里头为我眼见的事找借口。
不知道为什么。
我誓言要放下的，似乎有重新评估重新审理。
决定放弃你的1月3日。
是我跟神之间的约定，是我在他的默许中的稳定。
也许这一切的安排就是如此，
是天父命名中保护照顾好他每一个儿女的方式。
如果真是如我眼所见的一样。
那我只能感叹我的神实在无所不知，无微不至的在照顾我们俩 － 不，应该说照顾你和我。
因为1月3日的那一天，
已经是我心里决定没有“我们”的可能了。
虽然留言棒上我只是沉默的旁观者，
却在24小时
考试的期间，无缘无故地在场逗留了太久。回返得太频繁。
我一直等着有人对此事件做出反映，质疑...期待着有人代我问那个问题。
终于等到了。你却没有答复。
为什么，我是为你高兴，为那个无名人祝福，为自己庆幸，还是什么。我心中是莫名的平静。
是降服于上帝在我们彼此生命中的安排，但有丝丝的好奇，又有丝丝的盼望
我想真的真的不是真的，可是我这几个小时的反应...让我审查了自己到底放下了多少。
我庆幸，放下了还不少。(: 希望有朝一日能做真挚的朋友！
Labels: sillythings
