just had a nightmare last night, i mean two nightmares.
had one, woke up, then had another.
i think i'm too stressed up by my exams - i'm actually terrified 1of even Anatomy. which should be the least of my worries.
anyway, dreamt that i forgot the date of the exam and ended up having to go for the exam as soon as i 'woke up' in my dreams. apparently super unpreapared for FINAL examinations. and yadayadayada. adrenaline pumping and sympathetic nervous system stimulated to send norepinephrine through to bind with my alpha, beta 1 & beta 2 receptors to stop blood flow through my GIT and renal system, increasing blood flow to skeletal cardiac muscles and liver. blah blah..
i can't remember if this was the first dream or what.
but the other one was worse.
i screwed up big time while taking care of some children and ended up being hated by the whole world. and even apology to the parents didn't really help, and everyone thought i was some idiot and reckless teenager not fit to do anything. i was just teaching some kid not to lick dirty stuff, cos children love to put everything into their mouth. oh wells, i didnt even want to get out of bed when i woke up this morning. everything was so negative. yikes.
am i so stressed?
i dont think i had such dreams during As
maybe i didnt have much sleep that time?
i want to cut out the part of my brain that controls daydreaming/ night mares. waste my time.
and sometimes i think ,what would happen if i screwed up. like would XX still be a friend to me like now , and like would XX still want to talk to me and stuff like that. pretty childish eh?
but yah, maybe i've yet to see fully what unconditional love is. i mean through people around me? or maybe it never really got into my heart/head.
i still fear messing things up. in case somebody doesn't love me anymore and thinks i'm a lousy bum.
anw, have fun mugging girls! exams will be gone soon and xmas will be here.
and guys can continue to rot in jungles, thanks for protecting our country. lol.
i'd be overseas in early dec, about 10 days after exams end. dont miss me.
kim chieh pam, hope you guys get back for xmas. esp kim!
i'd be back by xmas for sure..:D
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