wow. maybe this comes with age.
but i really already am missing my home and room and stuff.
perhaps as we grow older. we get more comfortable with the discomforts of this world. being more blinded and even enjoying these imperfections.

long gone are the hopes and adventures and dreams.
and perhaps greater the craving for stability.

离开起点，却又回到原始. is there any irony greater than this.

somehow the people i miss are less.
but knowing that i miss them much more.
but some how to be always with these people i can't always be me. :(

Hope something wakes up my idea.
i don't even know what exactly is wrong with me in this year.
只有心中隐隐作痛的伤口，溃烂的伤疤，还有永远于事无补的胶布。

Labels: :(, sillythings, vacation, 叹

i hate you menstrual cramps.
go away. i need to go out for tuition and gatherings! UGHHH.
i hate you hypoxic cramps.
you lousy milo, never help at all. RAHHH.
you only caused diarrhoea. BLAHHHH.

oh well, another lazy day.
a totally lazy weekend with the cold temperatures and faulty street lamps.
i just went out to get my grumbling stomach some hot soup in this cold weather, and it felt like i was in China somehow, with the sounds of cars zooming past in the dark winding street, the lamps were out.

i returned home, all alone, watching UP on my mac.
i imagined, if there would be someone with me through this all... walking down the empty streets in the tranquility and watching an animation on adventure, against a background of death and aging.
i wish, then, that we would die together. and save each other any sorrow of solitude.

packing my room again tomorrow. i wonder why i never could finish. probably because i never could bear to throw some thing away.
and probably because of the same reason, i'd never be able to straighten out all the thoughts that has been going on in me these past two years of ^&$#^%#@*-ness.

i hope i'd get to know if it is you soon.

Labels: filMatters, sillythings, simple happyness