this is the ritual most blogger-student go through when their cerebrospinal fluid becomes a super saturated solution.

things i'm going to do/plan to do after exams:

1. go for feng shen juhui!
   i'm like so void of any cell groups now :S
   
2. team meetings and team trainings! (wee~ i'm going to climb mountains)
   
3. Pick Kimberle up from the airport on 2 Dec 8am
   
4. mee meeshern treep! the most worth the money thing to do on earth - community work :)
   
5. i want to go kayaking - with like a handful people only and the person who sprang up to my mind: GOH SIXUAN! haha, i hope you get to see this. I don't mind going some adventure with you either.. your flying stuff. just that i can't make it on Sundays~~ haha.
   
6. archive all this semester's work - hard and soft copy
   
7. plan next semester's timetable - actually I already have. just maybe want to look through more probablities. Singapore Studies is so propaganda. I must choose the one that is the easiest to scoree. which means interest plays a vital role.
   
8. buy xmas presents, buy cards - write all my thanksgivings to the friends around me, near and far..from the east and west, from the north to south, from the northwest to the southeast, from the southwest to the northeast and erms.. NNW and SSE and what ever hahahahahahah
   
   i think cards are more economical AND much more meaningful. So only some will have presents :)
   
9. go swimming go running, go exercise, go slim down :) go get a tan. I hope the monsoon will leave the beaches with some sun on some days..
   
10. get a hair cut - i'm in the 'i want super short hair' kindda mood now.
    i want to get that nice haircut i had in J2 leh.. the person keep cannot get it right, and i keep looking like a nerd for ages. BLEAH.
    i'm not going to say ' i want that time that hair style' anymore cos she apparently only remembers the nerd kind. I'm going to force her to bring out all her fashion magazines till i choose the coolest one for me cool head. WAHAHAH
    
11. buy nice super non-slip slippers - my teva have been making me tiptoe after heavy downpours
    havannias are nice and so not worth the money. I saw cheapo imitations so i'd probably source for them
    hey, are slippers supposed to make you slip? cos my tevas are doing just that. no wonder they are 'designed for mountain climbing'.
    
12. i want to bake cookies for people. but i fear i screw up and waste my time and feel like a lousy bum. and i dont want to waste my time making premix cookies which are always too sweet and a super give away - cos of their standard taste :(
    
13. i want to cook yummy veggies everyday I am at home. so i can save the money and trouble of going out to eat, and become slimmer, and become more healthy. i only like some veggies, and i can eat that one dish the whole day for every meal without rice. so yah, that's what i'm going to do.
    
14. the most standard thing i do after every exam/ during holidays/ when something major really happens like i break up or something - PACK MY ROOM! muahahaha
    for those who fear me saying those three words, don't worry, im just going to take one day to do it all ... and i will stop working when it is dinner time, i hope. Hahah. I just need to clean dirty filty dusty things :P
    
15. and of course, i didnt forget my date with xifu xifu (why are you called xifu anyway?) and if zj wants to come along
    
16. ok ok, i dated alot of people - zhenbin desmond and boonhan! :D RVNP buddies.
    
17. I would want to just hang out and chill with a couple of people by then i finish those 16 items on my list - Grace Hoo Si Ru for one, haha, and the pharmers.
    She'll fly off the day we finish exams, for holidays, then I'd fly off for my trip before she returns, and when I return, she'd already have flown off to yunan for her OCIP trip again! :( so we'll only get to meet after christmas. cheerios for bringing the festive joy to the lepers. I so so wanted to go. but i'm glad I didn't! :) my mission trip really clashes with it! hahha.
    
    ASY probably have fits at home for not having her dumpling noodles for so long.
    
18. and by then, i'd have hit into the first week of january.
    i'd be logging on to CORS everyday or something.
    this year I want to start mugging earlier and consistently so exams are not such a chore to me and i can still go for youth like its no kick! MUAHAHAH.

fine that took well over 5 minutes.

happy exams,

happy holidays~

okay, i still want to go watch omin-theatre, go cycling around singapore, go science center, go discovery center and go to the birdpark. these things i havne't done in ages. and would like to relive my childhood memories hahah

two days and counting

Labels: yay

just ended runhua & meisi's wedding on 24th Nov.
and yes, like Mummyee said - very stressful dinner, and thinking that, I'd rather prepare for anat all over again and go for exams! :(
for those who knew what happened - THERE WILL BE NO PHOTOS HERE!
as i strive to erase all memories of it here save for the one i took with the bride. Dont't know what she will do with it, maybe it'll get lost in the multitude of other pictures she took that day
spent a great deal this month I couldn't save up much. AHH. there goes my monthly savings - but it's still manageable. What's the point of storing so much riches on this world anw. My savings are enough for my mission trip already mah. Which is like the reason why I even dicide to start saving towards such a large sum of money in J1.
Thinking now that it is hardly my monthly wage in times ahead. Maybe it aint that much after all. and as usual my mother is very surprised I can go with my own money. She must be thinking i got a hidden gold mine like always -.-
silly people don't understand what is S.A.V.E.

24th November was a horrible day if not for Runhua's wedding.
Because then it would be the H.U.I.W.EN. birthday. GROSS RITE!
aye, my blog must be PG cannot talk about such stuff

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIONDI!:D poor boy to have your annual occassion tainted with such a gloomy backdrop.

ayes. my legs are really suffering for these two days. I can't believe i left home on saturday morning without a proper pair of sneakers or sports sandals! ugh. 真的是受罪！
me lovely leggies, please forgive me!

今天聚会分享非常的贴切。可是聚会后不知为何有个莫名的感伤。甚至很想马上回家。回家的路途也莫名的落泪。今天唱的诗歌也在我刚醒来的脑海中，迷糊的璇传着。

yet my own vineyard I have not kept...

我知道我在你生命中早已没有地位。
我认识的、熟悉的，只是外表的你。
我知道我为什么做了我做的决定。
再有机会，我也会如此。因为神的话语是没有商量的余地的。

我想，更讨神 喜悦的，使你完全从我脑海中退去你过去在我心里的身份。
放下我生命的这一部分。
有时觉得 self-justified, 有时十分的愧疚。觉得，亏欠了你。出口肆无忌惮的我，常常伤害你。那天晚上也是-而且是我对你造成最大的伤害吧。

这一切，90%都是我单方面的。
因为你根本就不想见到我。
可能也希望从未认识过我。

我已经不认识现在的你。
我也该忘了从前的你。

原你幸福。

Labels: sillythings, updates

This is my comfort in my affliction
for Your word has given me life.

ahh. Anat's in like 9.5h
and Runhua's wedding after that for the whole day, then sleep over at wen's so that I don't need to travel all the way home again.
Projectionist duty, and then heading home on Sunday to wash stuff and maybe head down to NUS to eat sleep drink PPDA. or catch up on Physio which I haven't started.

I hope I don't need to S/U SW2104! :S
gosh gosh.
I still dont have shoes for tmr. God give me a miracle.
One week of it. from 12 midnight onwards.
and i'll zoom off to some montainous regions in China. to climb them :D
I'm so so so excited! Hope I can be of use there to the youth :)

CLIMB MOUNTAIN. go to the minority groups. This is like my dream holiday lah. and so meaningful. I hate paying to fly to shop in some urban jungle. May the Lord of the winter have mercy on me :)

ahh, dont take exams liao, fly to holiday tmr! :D if only.. haha, chieh is missed and missed the date you made with me! :(

昨天祷告会，
赫然发现，我许久已经忘记的事：

每一次我祷告，我摇动你的手
祷告做的事，我的手不能做。

可能，也许，或许，我一直浪费时间做些没什么果效的事。
忘了最重要的 - 祷告。

考试一天一天的逼近，我赖床的时间也越来越久，读不完的书也越来越多。
肚子也越来越大，头发越来越丑，运动也越来越少。

我的时间是宝贵的，不会让无聊的事情，莫名其妙的白日梦，懒散的肉体，可恶的魔鬼再夺走！你们跟我退下！因为这是我的生命，是我能控制的，轮也轮不到你们！

just had a nightmare last night, i mean two nightmares.

had one, woke up, then had another.

i think i'm too stressed up by my exams - i'm actually terrified 1of even Anatomy. which should be the least of my worries.
anyway, dreamt that i forgot the date of the exam and ended up having to go for the exam as soon as i 'woke up' in my dreams. apparently super unpreapared for FINAL examinations. and yadayadayada. adrenaline pumping and sympathetic nervous system stimulated to send norepinephrine through to bind with my alpha, beta 1 & beta 2 receptors to stop blood flow through my GIT and renal system, increasing blood flow to skeletal cardiac muscles and liver. blah blah..

i can't remember if this was the first dream or what.
but the other one was worse.

i screwed up big time while taking care of some children and ended up being hated by the whole world. and even apology to the parents didn't really help, and everyone thought i was some idiot and reckless teenager not fit to do anything. i was just teaching some kid not to lick dirty stuff, cos children love to put everything into their mouth. oh wells, i didnt even want to get out of bed when i woke up this morning. everything was so negative. yikes.

am i so stressed?
i dont think i had such dreams during As
maybe i didnt have much sleep that time?

i want to cut out the part of my brain that controls daydreaming/ night mares. waste my time.

and sometimes i think ,what would happen if i screwed up. like would XX still be a friend to me like now , and like would XX still want to talk to me and stuff like that. pretty childish eh?
but yah, maybe i've yet to see fully what unconditional love is. i mean through people around me? or maybe it never really got into my heart/head.
i still fear messing things up. in case somebody doesn't love me anymore and thinks i'm a lousy bum.

anw, have fun mugging girls! exams will be gone soon and xmas will be here.
and guys can continue to rot in jungles, thanks for protecting our country. lol.

i'd be overseas in early dec, about 10 days after exams end. dont miss me.
kim chieh pam, hope you guys get back for xmas. esp kim!
i'd be back by xmas for sure..:D

Labels: sillythings

Today I was randomly talking to my dad on my way home in his cab.
And I suddenly remembered that I don't even know my grandfather's name.
Cos he died when my father was really young, I never got to see him and my father have little recollection of him even.

And my dad told me his name, as well as some intersting stuff.
I have two unknown uncle & aunt in China, who is like a decade older than my dad.
And that my grandfather was really really really rich!!
but he had to spend his fortune on trying to cure his large intestinal cancer or something and left my dad and his mother without much money when he died.

How rich?
In the 40s, 50s,
my grandfather was a shareholder of petrol stations / company whatever you called them.
had a car and many servants. WOWW! at that age.. I would compare him to the Jews now! Gosh.. hahaha. I'm supposed to be a rich kid. Imagine how much proud-er i'm going to be, how smug and probably being a spoilt brat in Cambridge or something. LOL.

Interesting Interesting.
But doesn't stop me from enjoying what I have now :D


Anw, my Physical Pharmacy practicals were good.
Considering that my senior hates me, or so I think, and so I don't have any practical reports to refer to.
Plus Ms Ivy Cheong's voice constantly reminding me how bad I am at hand-brain co-ordination.
:) I'm glad I managed to get A- on the average for all 6 graded practicals :D:D
and managed to even get a A+ for one :D Whee~

Praise God, cos I really prayed during some practicals that I won't screw up and that I would have the clarity of mind to think through things as I do them. :S

I hope I did well for my QA Test for PPDA. which is like organic chem basically..
weird that they merely posted up the distribution of marks and not our individual marks huh?

I love m Daddy :D