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30 August 2008
a summary of all that i am in now
What?!
am i doing in the middle of the night blogging?

today (or ytd rather) i ate hotpot with my mother.
麻辣火锅... yum yum.
in the comforts of my home :)

and i am up only completing one out of a dozen of my hmwks.
tmr morn must wake up early and give assurances.
i must say i have a great reluctance and inertia to do this.
im sorry, im not good at it.. i dont know what to do.:(

i chanced upon my own blog entry whilst doing random searches on Googles.. amidst lookign for things like box and whiskers plot and & emprical rules and stuff.
and i read it, a 2007 June entry.

And it sounded almost identical to my previous post!
the sch gonna start very stress kindda feeling.
the not very integrated into a certain group of ppl i am supposed to have close-knitted relationships with
the dont want to bother about him feeling

I can't believe it has been well over a year and its still like that.
I wonder if this is one of the push factor for me to find like-minded friends out in perhaps canoe polo...or maybe im a bottomless pit of love.

I can't believe I been stuck in ambiguity in so long!
I hate interpersonal relationships when they drag and drag long.. without issues being threshed out. Or rather, even if we don't thresh things out, i have a make or break attitude.
If we dont talk about it, we might as well dont talk about anything.
I dont like the let's-pretend-nothing-is-happening feeling. Neither am I good at it.
or maybe you have resolved it already and things are alright already, just that i dont know, cos we aren't supposed to talk about it.
we are after all seperate entities..
Totally ambiguous. ugh whatever. I really want to be a friend..can play tgt without restrictions.
maybe i should rid myself of such childish simple-minded hopes?

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