What?!
am i doing in the middle of the night blogging?

today (or ytd rather) i ate hotpot with my mother.
麻辣火锅... yum yum.
in the comforts of my home :)

and i am up only completing one out of a dozen of my hmwks.
tmr morn must wake up early and give assurances.
i must say i have a great reluctance and inertia to do this.
im sorry, im not good at it.. i dont know what to do.:(

i chanced upon my own blog entry whilst doing random searches on Googles.. amidst lookign for things like box and whiskers plot and & emprical rules and stuff.
and i read it, a 2007 June entry.

And it sounded almost identical to my previous post!
the sch gonna start very stress kindda feeling.
the not very integrated into a certain group of ppl i am supposed to have close-knitted relationships with
the dont want to bother about him feeling

I can't believe it has been well over a year and its still like that.
I wonder if this is one of the push factor for me to find like-minded friends out in perhaps canoe polo...or maybe im a bottomless pit of love.

I can't believe I been stuck in ambiguity in so long!
I hate interpersonal relationships when they drag and drag long.. without issues being threshed out. Or rather, even if we don't thresh things out, i have a make or break attitude.
If we dont talk about it, we might as well dont talk about anything.
I dont like the let's-pretend-nothing-is-happening feeling. Neither am I good at it.
or maybe you have resolved it already and things are alright already, just that i dont know, cos we aren't supposed to talk about it.
we are after all seperate entities..
Totally ambiguous. ugh whatever. I really want to be a friend..can play tgt without restrictions.
maybe i should rid myself of such childish simple-minded hopes?

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In a wink of an eye I have finished one year of university!
I hope that I do well this time. not like the other time..

I shall not talk about my papers, for that's really of no point.
I won't say I have done my utmost best. Mostly trying hard to self-motivate.
Immediately after exams I reverted to become a full-time kingdom worker. HA. and then i realised how slack I have been during my 闭关修炼 days at home!
I sleep like till 10am and study, cook lunch, eat lunch, study, jog, watch tv then sleep... waking up the next 10am.
Thats totally a luxury to many people in church!

Wednesday mummyee and gege came to eat with my pharmacy friends.
I think i need like 100 million tons of weight on my heart to stop it from throbbing sometimes..
And today invited my parents and grandparents to Parent's Day.
I'm glad that my faithful God made everything great. The day even started out great.. really everybody quite happy and joyful kind. Not like usual very stress and stuff.
Even more thankful that I am not like serving heavily during the event and I can attend to them properly.
All my previous fears were kindda redundant :)
God is really really faithful. He keeps His promises, and is always there to help even though we fear and panick. I'm sure He's looking upon us with a smile :)

Waiting for all the parent's day information to come in to embark on a scary journey of data consolidation.
All that I have planned to do like pack my room, clean up and replenish my room stuff (like my thirsty hippo) was supposed to have been completed.
They took a back seat but I'm glad I have been of any use :)

Yayys. I'm probably gonna find a job and work during holidays
going for retreat with Grace Hoo, going for mission trip, NOT going for Europe anymore.
I'm quite excited about the ZMIS thing, so I think I'd give it a shot! :D
Studying is what I like, what else best to study than the Word of God ? :) YAYNESS.

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