Well, school work's really snowballing again nowadays.
As i look at my new year's resolutions set just a month ago, they are in danger of all failing away.

the busy-ness, hectic schedules. CNY reunions & societal needs for New clothes...
I think i'd buy heels this year..maybe a pretty flower skirt & a plain top :)
or something. where got time?!

my new year's resolution of running every day is now dwarfed by all the homework.
Just thursday I decided not to procrastinate (new year resolution #2).
and went running at s 11:30pm
4.8km timing's quite bad (36min) but i'm glad i did it.

I don't want weird diseases when i get older. esp with my super budget constrained diet... and 8h non-stop lectures on 3 out of 5 days this semester.
I'm already trying hard to run 3x a week already. yet now.. that monthly feminine affair has commenced, further dampening my fast disappearing momentum.
Aunty Ruby's a great encouragement. She's like running everyday even though it's late at night at the gym... paying for it. How can I been slack?!

I must not.
I must not let the incessant ridiculous monotonous meaningless routine of life steal away the remainder of my youth. whatever i have left of the prime of my life.
I have got to set out goals to achieve. that i may look back,, in my sixties and say "it was a crazy time... but i achieved something"
Something more than grades & career achievements. transient pursuits in the rat race... pointless paper chases and materialistic pursuits.


Other than that, I really thank God for all that He has done since I left the juveniles.
The cell group that didn't exist when I left them, and the uncertainty was really no uncertainty at all... I'm glad I trusted in Him. and ended up in this cell group.

For a while I really doubted if I could even hear God anymore... was I too screwed up, too messed up, too evil, too lousy etc etc.. to ever hear Him speak again.
Friday's cell was great. Great seeing that everybody was so excited talking about missions & wanting to grow in the Lord together. (: crazy and impossible plans we didn't know where to start.... like what going to Kazakhstan for mission trip end of this year...(don't take this seriously... we were randomly brainstorming)
Coincidentally, or not, I was also thinking of setting up a medical mission in church that morning (like it was a totally random & impossibly funny thought). Yet, someone else brought it up during cell which got everybody excited~

Today i gave myself a break from the morning alarm. I slept till 1:30pm since I slept at 3:30am on Friday morning... and then I proceeded to study until now...
Bonjour pandan bread saved my growling stomach and my trusty tie guan yin tea leaves are great comfort!
I was doing thai 2 homework so happily for like 3h which felt like 1.5h. and I wanted to check if it was 11pm yet cos I was just destressing by doing Thai. I have like crazy test on Tues..
Yet I realised it was 1:30am!!!! *yikes*

Caffeine in tea leaves keeping my sympathetic nervous system stimulated.
Going on to memorise Asthma Medication Regiment.

love you. whoever is reading this :)

Labels: academia, love:), mugging ramblings, simple happyness, yay, 承诺

yeah, thank GOD for it all.. up to this day.

Well, loads have happened since my last update.. and today I have a little bit of time on my hand so I could update my blog :)


my simple happyness

Well,as Clara Fu had said while I was constipated paddling in the sea... My 21st celebration is self-torture. Friday cell group had a humongous Bakerzin Cake for me, truly the largest I had in yearrrs. it was good although I brought half the cake home.
Then Monday I went cycling from ECP to Bedok Reservoir to climb trees. and my birthday cake got thrased by the sudden downpour. So I didn't have to eat cake again. but we stuck a candle and sang the song anyway. :)
Tuesday went canoeing with Joycelyn and Clara. so wonderful. although I screwed up by forgetting my 2 star cert and the super heavy rain. wanted to go round ubin kayak but only got to paddle from changi to pasir ris beach (read: HIGH MICROBIAL LEVELS FROM LEAKING SEWAGE PIPES)

MAF2009!
super screwed! the light ups that is! but we had fun dancing wild wild west and set on you (:
Bernardos I miss you! :) I can't get over the fact that I missed dancing set on you with him last year, just to see a not nice eye candy of GREEN EVIL PIXIE!:(
anyway, this year I think they secretly want to poison us with CO gas.
It was great having my birthday cake and singing the song at the 78 class bench, going to the READING ROOM to see the vandal we did in 23.11.2006 still there..and talking to Mrs Cheng and playing with Samuel - Mrs Koh's new son. okay not so new - like 1.5 years old.


and we went to Ying's house to eat a lot of nice food and do what 78ers are good at doing! MUGGG together. BOOMz Ris Low is entertainingly STUPID.


ACADEMIA
Everything is so tiring with school. with tests.
and always trying so hard and falling short so much.
thank God anyway for great E learning week where I shall be deep in my books and hibernate in them. I will work hard and one day I will 出人头地! just like the times I mug my ass off in HC and suddenly got my name in the top 30s for bio! :)

Thank God even for the Provider He has always been.
my Bank Account has been dwindling at an exponential rate as I signed up for an OCIP
and a Photography class.
and my tuition kid MIA. so I practically have expenses > income for quite some time now.
but lately he gave me a 2 week assignment with relatively good pay, one bus stop away from NUS and pays almost the amount I need to pay for my OCIP.

and my pierced ears refused to heal.
it closes up like super fast.
yesterday as I woke up in th emonring, my earrings fell off (the one that 78 bought for me, I had put them on the previous night) and I went for lecture, in a hurry without earrings. 2.5h after that, I returned home and my ear holes were closed totally. wa lao. i poke like 1.5h with painful endurance and finally got them back in :(
I think they are gonna stay for the next month again.

I'm now lazing in my couch watching the Perfect Storm. :)
thank God for E learning week. I need to work on my discipline! :)
LOYAL ENDURANCE

Labels: 05S78, love:), mugging ramblings, simple happyness, updates, vacation, 承诺

firstly,
to Yucks Yang: that hand warmer thing became my exam buddy.
my exam venue happened to be freezing and I'm usually frozen before everyone is.
now I am so warm and fuzzy while doing my paper :)

secondly,
to everyone who told me that winning wasn't everythign, that I should treasure the process..
to everyone who told me that I tried too hard acting or being cool..
to everyone who told me that I come up with stupid horrible songs to sing...
take a look at that 乒乓圆!
I think my songs are better than the.."乒乒乓乓...."

Labels: filMatters, love:)

my printer always ALWAYS messes up when i try to do the print-all-odd-pages-then-print-all-even-pages thing to print double side

which is always when i am in a hurry and busy and need to rush off to school
it leaves me exasperated
sometimes resigned to the fate of a set of notes, with messed up sequence during lectures

today I prayed my way through
purposing to praise God even if it will end up rubbish again.

today the paper ran out
the ink ran out
i pressed the wrong button
and the printer had to stop abruptly through printing jobs.

as I refilled time and again
and clicked resume,
nothing went wrong ...

for 6 sets of notes!
truly a miracle:)

Labels: love:)

I'm so happy happy happy.
My to-do list was NEVER embarked on.
now I have more to do
but I also feel I have more in me to go on:D

BIG THANK YOU to my Lord :)
who refreshed me during the retreat.

wasn't having much personal time but was still manageable within comfortable levels.
though I would need so 自闭time these few days.
I wonder how, with the work I need to do:D

spending the nights facing the sea and sorting out my thoughts was great.
some issues have to be settled.
some breaking has to be done.
i love You


most of the time we just fellowship-ed in the resort
playing uno and saboteur and reading books (some others sleeping)

baby sitting was fun.
here's my 小朋友what i appreciate most about the camp?
I don't think Banana Boat was high on the list but I so so wanted to go on it, so there were 6 others who just accompanied this other little one and went on the Banana Boat :) Thanks. :')

Labels: love:), vacation, yay

无比的开心。
可以去祷告会了！

无比的开心。
神是顾念我的神。
他把我心里所求的赐给了我。:)

My short term tuition assignment ended on Monday
And I received another immediately when I got home from that last tuition session.
It's a tuition just beside NUS. LIKE CAN WALK THERE THAT KIND.
means I can go between lessons.
or before trainings.
earn money without extra time spent!

not that the little slot i have in between trainings and lesson could help me catch up on much work anw.

SP1203 Presentation soon.
I'm so gonna get this module out of the way.
PR2104 Lectures have officially ended.
Hello exams, I'm gonna conquer you:)
I'm not afraid. I'm in expectation of what God is going to do.

and i just realised that i won't have lectures for PR2104 on Friday.
Means that its a waste of time for me to have my 5pm tuition. since i need to stay in sch although i have no lecture.
Seriously, I dont study that well in sch.
not for this semester.

after training, i've got one sms.
my tuitee requested for tuition to be earlier this week.
and to be exactly the time that i end my previous lesson and can reach there! wow.

Labels: love:), updates, yay, 我的良人

Celebrations
Meiyee + Wen + ALL
yummy buffet lunch::loved the sashimi & bread pudding & ginseng soup

canoe.polo.girls
funny surprise for us september babies::& lizard trying to distract us although her hand was hurting

SPLASH
another surprise! guest starring Mummyee & Wen:: cake fight is so nostalgic
used to have to clean up my school canteen back then
even Min Nan sneaked an attack on me :o

Wishes
Church: a million and one
05s78: RVians - GreenPixie, Yings + Ang Chieh, Kimbo, Nicholas, Biondi, Li Min, Andy
NUS Canoe Polo: Joycelyn, Van, Lizard
NUS Pharm: Kah Mun, fellow Grace the unglam, ClaraFu, Yinshan (06S78)
05S21: Chee Yen :O + Ang SY
RV: Boonie, Sixuan (-1; cos i wished her instead ha. same bdae), Gillian

Gifts!
Hercules Auto-Grip Guitar Stand sis
Pink Polo Tee Meiyee+ Wen
NONGirly Flowers Meiyee + Wen
Boat Figurine (they couldnt find a canoe) Meiyee + Wen
Beautiful Photo from the Happy Family
NEW BOOK to read! Splash
Threadless Tee ying
Random Greece Photo + Keychain kimberle

and loads of cakes to eat, three days in a row from CanoePolo then from FengSheng and then from Splash.

its weird to write all these down, but its for record's sake.. one day i'd read through this and rmb all the love.:)

Labels: canoe polo, love:), nostalgia, updates, vacation, yay

there goes my youth

there is this sudden dread looming over my head.
like an impending thunderstorm

people say that once you hit 20, 30 will be coming soon
YIKES.

today i went to visit my old hunt.
i went to jurong point.
admist the buying of gifts for other fellow september babies... i was partly reminiscing the old days in RV pinafore, strolling down the deserted alleys of the mall during those lazy afternoon hours after school.

the place changed, but not quite.
renovation works going on, with a new bus terminal, and certainly much more crowd since its a saturday..
i saw familiar shops at familiar spots, interwoven with new stalls i never seen before.

i squeezed through the crowd along the unfamiliar portions, only to arrive at that basement escalator that leads to the POSB Bank below, outside breadtalk.
then i thought "oh! so this is where I am"

the place that i just walked through, used to be a dead end wall..

i never bothered to look down, to check if it was still a POSB Bank there.
i assume it to be so.

I thought of the countless times i walked into the side entrance of the mall, with my friends..
from seondary one classmates, secondary one crush to secondary four buddies..
and even my very first boyfriend :)
ha. it all seems so far away right now. yet so near.
it was just at that spot.. that neoprint shop which is now no longer there.

where my childish puppy love waited for me during chinese new year in the deserted mall.
where we catched the movie Peter Pan and took a neoprint.
he was wearing his best i ever saw.
i was wearing my sari and we smiled the heartiest smile of our lives.

i thought i found the one.
and he thought too.. i hope.

it was in jurong point, or else in JEC.

it was also in jurong point i first met my last ex.
it was the first time i noticed him, but not his first time..
he just booked out from army and i was just looking for something to destress admist my O levels mugging - i rmb i called it the Big Fat Os last time.
and tore my Entry proof into pieces and probably burnt it after the last paper.

this uneasy acquaintances catched a movie together and become more than mere acquaintances.
i dont know if i regret knowing him
all i know is that without him bringing me to church
i would probably be a worse wreck than i was then
and there's no point in speculating the probabilities should things happened another way than they already have.

then i came home and turned on my facebook.
i saw in an album "tell me this aint classics" by a fellow squadmate.
and i saw myself, and my other RVNP Girls.. in our sec three days. i am sure..
taking a picture in who-knows-where.
i miss those days when i had gung-ho friends pia-ing alongside with me every PT training every drill session.
to stand under the hot sun and to get cramps from doing rusouk senjata with our M16s, all because we wanna put on our no.1 uniform and stand in the front row of the GOH Contingent. which was fated to be cancelled due to the stupid SARS!!! :(
i did get to become contingent commander in supporting contingent holding a drill cane but not in my yearned for no.1 uniform the following year.
except that i was glorified without my squadmates and the NCO squad was falling apart from internal conflicts and CCA Politics! :(

well, when you are old you tend to nag.
so there, that's just part of the crazy days of my youth.
the ones that are so far away from me i feel

those are the days i wasn't a Christian.
where i fought and scolded that F word like it was la lor meh mah in my sentences.

JC days dont seem too far off yet because that was when i changed to become who i am now.
maybe when im 25 years old.. i would look at my JC days and type an entry just like this one?
who knows?

dare to love
play hard study hard
live life the fullest - the way the Lord has prepared for me

Labels: love:), nostalgia, sillythings, yay

I am believing God for a new season in my life.
A season of Productivity.

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This season, many people are having fever.
so are we.
we are having .. hot pot fever!

today was celebration for my beloved 好姐妹 's birthday :D
and we went to 巴蜀人家 like last year.
it's superrr nicee. China-style hot pot. Singapore style is just plain bland and tasteless. Everything tastes the same. But the Chinese hot pot is seriously good.
In the year, my tastebud has gone hihgly immune to chilli oil and spiciness.

I think my Trpv1 receptors on my tongue have gone desensitised. or maybe my nerves just rapidly fire causing the inhibition of my other relay neurones already..

for the less scientifically developed sub-species of homosapiens, it simply means that im super numb to chilli. and so the 麻辣火锅 was like totally not 辣 to me at all.
last year i shuddered at the thought of eating anything from the pot.
and only ate one piece of luncheon meat.
This year it was not spicy AT ALL.

But it was stil nice.
Everything was relatively fresh, yummy and FREE FLOW.
yum yum

Initially we wanted to go swimming, but since we couldn't because of many feminine woes, we decided to 喷水still, but on land.
and 老妈 actually even brought a spray (that people use for gardening or ironing clothes that kind) to spray wen.
Turns out it become a facial spray to cool us down from hot pot heat stroke.
Was so hot!!

oh, i rmb happy also went to this place last year.
when he was in his mother's womb. hahah.
this year was just the 4 of us:)
rewarding, 真的是空空地来，饱饱地回去。
而且都是挺着个肚子的那种。

Labels: love:), updates, vacation, yay

faithgrace is up to neck with work.

faithgrace is contemplating on joining a certain CCA that would effectively mean a reduction in income, increase in social entertainment expenditure, reduction in ministry time, and only possible personal satisfaction.
what should she do?

faithgrace is gonna press on, making the best of everything.
believing that her God is one that gives more than abundantly, more than just enough.
be it in terms of finances, in terms of time mangement, in terms of strength and creative ideas.

faithgrace needs to experience her Love of her life, anew. :)
I love You very much. *hugs*

Labels: love:), updates, vacation

In a wink of an eye I have finished one year of university!
I hope that I do well this time. not like the other time..

I shall not talk about my papers, for that's really of no point.
I won't say I have done my utmost best. Mostly trying hard to self-motivate.
Immediately after exams I reverted to become a full-time kingdom worker. HA. and then i realised how slack I have been during my 闭关修炼 days at home!
I sleep like till 10am and study, cook lunch, eat lunch, study, jog, watch tv then sleep... waking up the next 10am.
Thats totally a luxury to many people in church!

Wednesday mummyee and gege came to eat with my pharmacy friends.
I think i need like 100 million tons of weight on my heart to stop it from throbbing sometimes..
And today invited my parents and grandparents to Parent's Day.
I'm glad that my faithful God made everything great. The day even started out great.. really everybody quite happy and joyful kind. Not like usual very stress and stuff.
Even more thankful that I am not like serving heavily during the event and I can attend to them properly.
All my previous fears were kindda redundant :)
God is really really faithful. He keeps His promises, and is always there to help even though we fear and panick. I'm sure He's looking upon us with a smile :)

Waiting for all the parent's day information to come in to embark on a scary journey of data consolidation.
All that I have planned to do like pack my room, clean up and replenish my room stuff (like my thirsty hippo) was supposed to have been completed.
They took a back seat but I'm glad I have been of any use :)

Yayys. I'm probably gonna find a job and work during holidays
going for retreat with Grace Hoo, going for mission trip, NOT going for Europe anymore.
I'm quite excited about the ZMIS thing, so I think I'd give it a shot! :D
Studying is what I like, what else best to study than the Word of God ? :) YAYNESS.

Labels: family, love:), ministry, updates

youth today was like truth or dare session.
LOL!
so you see, we are all NOT dainty little beautiful angels. never were..
but God still has changed us greatly huh?

crushes are distractions that ought to be put away.
my logical mind had have always triumphed over troublesome emotions.
always.

after exams. ..
holidays. retreats to bintan, tour to Europe, holiday job
getting mr. crush out of my otherwise beautiful life.

I wish I could wake up to the Holy Spirit every day like today.
I think I'd call Him Mr. Sweet from now on. ha..
I wonder if He would cringe at that name?

Labels: love:)

and now i know again,
prayer works.
I think I'd pray more from now on,
for others

and maybe after sharing you get so tired you fall asleep teaching tuition.
i hope my tuitee's family dont see this.

Labels: love:), ministry

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
i am suddenly a bit the high.
but the kind of will not very long the kind of high.
cos erm, no reason why i am high.
nothing's solved yet, nothing's REsolved yet to be exact.
except..

1. CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING!
   ang bao ang bao ang bao
   and then i can exchange the angbao money for two things: a formal blouse plus a new bag for school
   
   i am no spendthrift! those who know me for 1 month would have seen my entire closet already.
   and my current bag is my sister's unwanted garbage.
   she bought it when she was in primary FIVE. which means a DECADE ago.
   but recently this kind of crumpler style bag became popular AGAIN, and plus ZINC which was some pasar malam thing a decade ago is quite branded now.. so whatever. I am still using it. Just that erm, I don't think it's been washed..(eeks)
   
2. no more school this week!!!!
   haha, yes. today is the first and the last day of my school this week. thank God for my fantastic timetable which He Himself worked out for me. Mine wasn't that good, but since He planned which modules I could get and stuff :)
   
3. this is a repeat, paraphrased version: tue, wed, fri and sat OFF!
   tues: Im going to catch on all the lil nitty gritty things i have been trying to do last week but was busy with SOP for projectionist.
   plus i am going to 大扫除 my room.
   
   wed: I am probably going to clean up my toilet and read my last remaining book that I have. and then read up on photography.. I am so tempted to buy a better camera. and take better shots.. deal with angles and stuff before I buy one that I can alter exposure and shutter speed. :)
   back up all my computer data
   
   thur: my one and only day that i go visiting. i haven't bought any clothes. think this year I will wear jeans and a top that is new. never wear before. but wasn't meant for CNY. but can lah. whatever. but have no proper footwear. If my angbao money can, and got nice shoes, I wanna buy a formal shoe and a pretty slipper for school.
   

meeting my neighbour for fun now. hahah tuan yuan drink cos we are not eating. LOLss.
love you kimberle. expect something to drop by you for Valentine's (Belated). ha.
i'm emo cos of 1001 reasons. haha, catch u online if possible.

Labels: love:), sillythings, updates, vacation, yay

doing things in the flesh is like walking on two hands instead of using our feet.
we can certainly run as fast as others who walk with their feet..if we train hard enough
but they're surely able to do it with much more ease.
and if the person who runs with his hands does his best VS the person who runs with his legs..
the outcome is obvious..
there's no limit in God, but by our strength..there's a great limit to what we can do.


i want to love You more:)

Labels: love:)