i guess the working life is as such:
saturdays are lovely.
sleeping in late is just paradise.


today's mission is to pack my forever messy room.
which reflects my current state of mind heart

and also to gear up for the coming semester. the hell sem.
back-to-school wishilst:
1. converse sneakers
2. crumpler bag
3. new light laptop that runs on xp? matric fair next week! :)
4. clothes :) i'm sick of T-shirts & jeans finally.
5. new spectacles?
6. Mac's Airport extreme to connect my printer wirelessly to my macbook in my room.
so that I won't have to forever set up my printer when I need it since there is no table space for my printer at all.

my room has only got my new cupboard. I still need a new bed frame to increase my storage space. but as for now, I shall pack my new cupboard and tables today. so that I will be able to fit my bed frame in when I find it, wihtout a hassle. because it'd probably be during the hell sem that I find it.

cell group last night was incredible.
incredible that God spoke and keeps speaking to me through all the Sunday sermons and cell groups I went.
不知为何出门那一刻，心中莫名的涌出了一丝快乐、兴奋。
之前觉得不适合的小组，顿时使我感觉十分自在。
even more confused now, to which cg I will end up, that God will delight.


the end of all things is the happiness of God, not the happiness of man.
原来, 他也有他的 simple happiness.

Labels: updates, 我的良人

好久好久没有这样...坐在大商场的中央，看着人群走过...安静地听着这周日要弹奏的新歌。
歌曲不间断地重复播放，心中的困扰也不间断扰乱自己的思绪。

今天是好姐妹的生日。
生日快乐。

今天，难得有一天能从偏僻的西方到市区。可人，还是一个。
选择了告别萍水相逢的同学、撇下独来独往的老板...自各儿在人群中自立我独处的虚拟空间。

我想，我心中如今只有失望。
失望弟兄姐妹之间淡薄的感情，失望我的生命中没有一个愿意真正付出的人。
很忙。ok fine.
我住很远 whatever.
我想，这些发霉的理由，借口，不管多真实、多valid, 用久了还是会造成伤害。

千方百计，就想要自己生命中最重要的人来到我的一片小天地，却得花尽九牛二虎之力而仍旧无能为力。
证明了什么？
"oh, 你只不过是不成熟" 是一个绝对垃圾的理由。

难道老夫老妻就不需要彼此表达爱意么？
那好朋友好搭档，就不需要保持关系么？

我们的国度不只是新朋友需要时间与肯定，对国度中的用久居民也更要有福利优待。

纳税与津贴要相称。

服侍与爱是要并肩。

somethings are not accomplished by mere words.
you should briefly say but boldly do it.
if you don't do it but only speak of idealistic things of the future... you are getting no where.

Labels: :(

omg. this is like the most successful birthday celebration since I don't know when.
it's like the funnest and the most comfortable and happiest one :)

although its not my birthday, but I still got to enjoy it with the dearest dearest sisters in my life forever. :)
we went to escape theme park and I was so reminded of ang chieh! the other time I was with her, just the 2 of us, on the viking... on a early saturday morning. and I was like screaming beyond myself, to the point that I could only vibrate about a fixed position. and she was like totally enjoying it. we obviously sat at one end of the viking...and I rmb I started screaming when nobody (if they were on it) would have felt it being scary.

age makes you cowardly.

or maybe not. Meiyi was commenting about the scenery when I was sitting with her -.-
I was much better this time because I obviously refused to sit the higher ends of the viking.

then we blind folded her, and had a very interstingly co-operative taxi uncle that kept trying ways to help us not to reveal the location of our dinner. we promised to split the ransom with him, because we were like kidnappers. LOL.
ended up we went to PINCH OF SALT cafe @ tanjong katong road. it totally rocks.
the staff was great, the food was excellent, and they played the happy birthday song while Ren Wen came in. haha.. I love that place!
We were so full and satisfied after a rushed lunch and a whole tired day. but very fun.
it almost didn't feel like a normal sunday.

which is quite sad. last time sundays were to me the happiest day of the week.
now its only happy when I am off-duty and get to sit alone in my own world during service, with only God the Holy Spirit talking to me. and after that everybody would still be on duty and so I will just go back to the cheaper westerlies for my lunch alone :/

if only every sunday was filled with friends, fun, laughter & quality fellowship.
instead of outreach for the plain sake of it.

my throat feels sore now from screaming.
my heart feels happy now from the outing.

Labels: updates, vacation, yay

have you ever tried your best to help someone,
and sacrificed saliva, time, heart & soul...
and in the end,
realised what you did for that person...

he/ she perceives it to be detrimental, and uses it as a reason for his current demise or downfall?

because it's not worth it anymore,
i'd probably not stop a person from killing himself if he wants to.
自生自灭吧，地球人。

I'm doing what I think is right, what I know to be right.
but I am not enforcing it on others.
because while you think you are doing that person a favour, you probably are ruining him forever.

Labels: :(, ministry

because delivery costs $50 at ikea
its worth it to have to open up all the car doors of my dad's taxi,
take up 2 parking lots of space,
spend 30minutes manouvering the 200cm++ long wardrobe into the taxi,
and get scolded my angmohs who wanted our parking space,
then drive off at 60km/h all the way home to prevent the glass door from cracking due to excessive vibrations

because the assembly price cost is ridiculous, and pretending to be a carpenter like Jesus was is enjoyable,
its worth it to spend 3hours assembling just the exterior frame only.

by the way, the angmoh was supposed by GARMENT to be from a GRACIOUS society.
and he horned damn loud. i said sorry we obviously are unable to close our car door... and so we can't give way yet.
the he sped up deliberately and screeched to a halt right in front of my dad's cab so that we would be unable to move out when we are done.
so my dad and i were panting and aching and trying our best to get out of the way ASAP. and there were a million and one other parking lots available at IKEA, on MONDAY NIGHT for goodness sake. but he insisted.

anyhows, my dad is a really good driver, he used to drive brand new cars shipped from overseas, from cargo ships.. and the cars were all spaced by centimeters apart. and he never crashed anyone of them.
so obviously we had no problem manouvering around the stupid angmoh's vehicle and went off happily.

so much for gracisou society!
its the locals not the angmohs that donate when i did flag day in secondary school anyway.
i was so taken aback cos i thought they were the most courteous ppl on earth. thanks to PAP.
they just like to make singaporeans look worse than we actually are.. on the relative global scale.

Labels: sillythings, updates, yay

contrary to popular belief, i actually do watch dramas...
because my enthusiasm for documentaries has been quenched by the never-ending stream of low quality films on Nat Geo and Animal Planet.

I just finished my HK drama, and probably would start on another jap drama.
and I would say that these two countries produce excellent shows :)
at least they are fast paced and sensible enough rather than low grade "idol"-craze in Taiwan & lame dialogues in Korean ones.

heh, the point is that I love the ending to Forensic Heroes 2 :)

that aside, I suddenly have the urge to leave my hair long.. after 9 years of not doing so.
I used to love my long hair, and mourned its demise after I entered RV.
Maybe some others would argue that I had my hair long in 2005. But that was a laziness in trimming my hair after O levels locked me up in my room with Chow Ban Hoe's crazily-out-of-syllabus teachings.

Perhaps, if I don't give up when the weather is too hot, that I may have my long hair back again. hee hee. It's time for a change.
Maybe I can ask evil green pixie to go pierce my ears with me when she comes visit next week.

oh, and maybe this is just another nonsensical illogical bout of craziness the female subspecies of mankind experiences from time to time.

Labels: sillythings, updates, yay

这星期过得似乎有些超现实。

时间仿佛停下了脚步，或许它像我一样 — 累坏了。
体力上的劳累，象我清晨4点钟睡到下午3点钟便可以恢复...
但是心灵的疲惫，我真我法摆脱。

天天上下班的时候，就盼望着回到自己的小房间，
平时整整齐齐的安乐窝反应了主人现今的迷茫。

等待处理的琐碎事，堆积如山。
它们无情无声地抗议主人为何还未处理它们。
还弄来了千万个尘埃为它们壮势。

主人，却亦然反常。
把紧条有序的习惯抛开，把自己生命所需也遗弃...
废寝忘食地沉迷了一个虚拟的世外桃源，享受着昙花一现的舒适与安稳。

今天主人终于不需上班，能在阳光中审查自己的生命。
眼间的陵轹碎片仍旧呼唤这她的名字。
只不过，心里明白—她虚幻的时间终究无法替代真实，沉迷一周的港剧也有大结局为结束。

泡泡般的虚拟空间没有长久。
隐藏在其中的人也会悬空而堕。

主人她，以自己的双手撑起了懒惰的身子。
从虚拟的安乐，走向了盼望的目标。

Labels: sillythings, updates

okay holiday resumes for one week :)
I know my preceptor is silently envious of us..
my darling lab buddy has been confirmed H1N1. and we pharmacy batch 2 ppl went to have lunch tgt.
We shared food at pasta mania, but heng buddy didn't eat, she just stare at us. lol.

Thanks to that, i got to sleep from 4pm to 10pm :)
YAYYNESS.

that's why HCPs should always protect ourselves when serving our patients!

Labels: on being a pharmacist, updates, vacation