omg. time traveller's wife is a movie.
I still wan watch UP. Wonder if its still around.
looks like I can't catch it soon.

tmr i have to go and entertain old people at tiong bahru.
i hope i make some old people happy tmr and don't counsel them wrongly.
I am actually quite excited to go practice in Hokkien :P

jonathan's party's tmr anw... should be quite fun (: heh...
my good friend is getting older and therefore more like a naughty boy..
dear oh dear. boys are always boys. all girls are angels. HA.

I'm glad God answered my prayers for a cell.
what seemed like an impossible wishful thinking actually came to pass!
Pretty glad that after this 寻寻觅觅ness I am more-or-less settled down somewhere.

Labels: filMatters, on being a pharmacist, simple happyness, 我的良人

rushed home after service to get my beauty sleep and reached home at a record 2pm :)
speedily washed by feet and hands and concussed on my lovely bed.

好久好久没有那么安稳的睡了。仿佛睡了半个世纪似的，其实不就5个小时。
从前，假期的6个星期，睡了过头的10几个小时都无法与这5个钟头来得过瘾。

这难道就是老一辈所说的、传说中的，好睡眠吗？
如果每一天睡的都是这种觉，我想我应该很少会赖床。因为睡醒是没有困倦的。呵呵。
我竟然睡觉睡出道理来了。

我真爱睡觉。
今天睡得太爽了。
okay, 好幼稚好无聊。

now i'm going to have a simple fare of instant noodles and mayonnaise.
tomorrow I am missing a lot of lectures to go and check my gastrointestinal tract.

perhaps, we are to live in comfort by coming to terms that we cannot comprehend all things. or rather, we can only comprehend very little.

Labels: simple happyness

I guess I thrive on a break now and then nowadays.
perhaps after my decision that I am not a robot.
which is a very true reflection of myself.
but some times i wonder if man could be more diligent and if this is the lazy nature of me talking out loud.

but anyway, i have been late for my pharmaco lectures ever since last semester. and this semester is no exception. at least for the past 1 week. who ask it to be 8am. okay, excuses.

tomorrow is no school day. and today ended at 4pm :)
(thats very early cos mondays are 8am to 8pm with only 2h lunch break)
It will be a nice alone time with myself and God. and the academic work that has piled up.
1001 chapters to read, a project to complete, forum discussions to read all by this week. or rahter by tmr. because thats my only free day.
but i enjoy it. cos today is hardly over and i still have tomorrow.

I guess I have been re-evaluating myself and seeing myself in a new light after so much depression, wallowing in self-pity, and so immersed with myself.
yup, ying... it's about myself, me and I, just like you blogged.
ha, but I guess it's a neccessary obsession once in a while. I realised I have changed.

I now pefer to take a laid back, slow and steady approach to walk to long road.
I believe.. after searching myself... that though I feel that I have failed and am inadequate by evident circumstance and situations, I am made for something greater than this.

and what I have gone through. and have not fully come out of, is nothing but training for the future.
however, my arms and legs are still feeble after being a lame lump of fat throughout the holidays. spiritually and physically. so I am standing up now. but feeling weird standing. I havne't garnered sufficient momentum to take steps.
standing up is good enough for now. and when I am tired standing. days like tmr would be great for me to sit down and rest. till I am used to standing, will I try to walk, and then run.

now it's time to do things the right way.
the relying-on-God way.
the way that lasts forever.

anyway, my elective - film and history - is quite cool cos we watch movies and write reports and have no final exams. (: i naturally think quite a lot when i watch movies anyway.. so i usually bust the word limit. i wonder if there's quality in my thoughts though.

Labels: academia, mugging ramblings, 承诺

probably picking myself up again.
probably still wanting to relieve myself of many things i don't think i am up to. like changwu team leader. *rolls eyes*

glad that this semester is relatively simpler.
because I have only one tuition, and a lot less money.
but also more time and less responsibilites.

i was happy to have cancelled more than half of the list of "roles & responsibilites" that i wrote out last semester. which was the reason for my meltdown.
not gonna embark on another adventure for some time.

not gonna put on another hat.
not gonna be someone else.

i have at least 3 roles/responsibilities that i am irresponsibly neglecting now though.
and i am not gonna say "whatever"
but i am not gonna say "i am on it" either.

being neutral, i guess, is an improvement from being negative.

oh wells, just went to secondary school gathering-like birthday party.
was nice to see everyone and talk about random things again.
its just funny that my bestest buds in sec4 aren't the frequent-est sec4 classmates i meet up with.
and i saw jerry after ages. and of course the other random guys.

now everyone is flying already.
the boys that is.
Cambridge and London. they speak of a foreign land like we talk about our neighbourhood.
one day, perhaps. i want to go overseas to get my PharmD also.
but I'm not that fantastic a student, not that rich a girl.

I'm pretty glad I am now rather excluded from that Y word.
and am glad that I have been excluded at some special luncheon.
was pretty reluctant to eat with the peeps except cos of my mother & mehmeh. was so tempted to leave with aunty ruby when i saw her walk by.
after all, the most i hear from mum lately has been "goodbye". haven't spent any quality time except hearing her stories of her and her boyfriend. oh wells. i guess all girlfriends are so. how different is she from others? or she's so busy she's looking at my face at one second, and the next, before I respond... she's off somewhere else. nothing i do matters. or she thinks i'm just unimportant enough to pay attention to.

i miss having no agenda and hanging out.
wen and mum seems to be machines running on automated mode. forever far and away.
or they have to make so much effort just to be nice. not natural anymore.
i totally hate it.

and though i am glad ma is here for my special day.
she totally forgot what i had told her months ago. about how i wanted to celebrate it.

i am very ugh-ed.

New York New York!
it has nothing to do with singapore. nor 78. nor wenqi.
but we went there to celebrate them anyway.

i was not very wise to know that andy's "not enough, not full" = super boating and filling.
so i was super bloated and my 3 month old imaginary foetus swelled to 5 months old size.
i hope after school starts all the stress and exercise would abort my foetus and revive my abdomen to its glorious days.

quite happy to meet up and catch up with the 78ers.
we met at around 7-8pm although we were supposed to gather at 6pm.
that's 78!
and we had 7-8 people (actually 11 after the latecommers appeared).

and delin's 12:34:56pm on 7th August 2009 is super funny.
1234:56h on 070809
and we sneaked to buy wenqi a cake as well as the red shirt i need for tmr's combined meeting. I wonder why I thought I always had a red shirt. LOL.

huiwen was drunk.
yingying went to canada with kangaroos.
and somebody else is on honey moon.

Labels: 05S78

I just swinged down to NUS to grab my new netbook today.
am I too greedy?
now I have 3 computer screens staring at me in the space of my little room.

I have desktop PC. which is like 5 years old, self-assembled...
I have a Macbook. which is like 2 years old...
and now a Toshiba Netbook NB200.

I went home I realised I haven't been myself.
I usually check out the model and just go online to check out reviews.. to ask around how the laptop is.. but I didn't and when I did realise it. I quickly went online to check. OK, it's generally good. but just that it sucks at typing. which I immediately did realised when I saw it...
pity the Fujitsu has funny software that is not Microsoft Office. If not I would buy the fujitsu one for the keyboard is easier to type with. and which is the primary thing I think I would be using my netbook for.
I surely can't play typing maniac with my netbook until I develop a bond with it.
I hope my Macbook skills will not deterioate after that.

It's been eons since I went thorugh all that install drivers and rubbish start up, restart, wait for booting and things like that on a PC.
I only remember the WOW factor that I could open up my Macbook and start using it and playing with the functions in 2007.
now my stupid netbook is silly and starting up itself. in its own world, and refuses to talk to me. talk about an anti-social computer!
after I was glad it responded.. it went on the intsall norton antivirus and stuff again. yawns yawns.

went to ION orchard. and found the rumoured "cheaper stalls" area.
but didn't buy anything except for pretzels and nutritea barley cos everythign was so ex.
not to mention that the crumpler shop had such a small range of bags..
and that the ear piercing shop at wisma was ridiculously priced. I thought I could really go and peirce my ears today already. since talking about it since last year! what's with the real diamonds on the studds. do I need them?
my rich husband will get me bigger ones in future. Rah.

my netbook just restarted AGAIN. for the like 1080953088r098th time!!
anyways, its pink..
and yes.. I am a girl :)

Labels: sillythings, updates, yay

今天庆幸能与两位大号人物共进午餐。
虽然三人已疲惫不堪，虽然说话时不时被周遭的事物打断、淹没。
但是还是在平凡中安享了午后时光。

拒绝了音乐会，也拒绝了烧烤会的邀请，
我独自一人在困倦之中选择了到邻里的购物商场兜个圈儿。
就这么兜一兜，买了老牵挂在心上的一些开学必需品。

又要成为个学生了。
这12周，过的十分仓促...但其中的几个目标也算达成了。
前6周的休息，有满足有失望。
后6周的工作，有学习有劳累。

最失望的是我前6周的主要目的完全没有达成。
最满足的是我前6周真的是睡够本man!
学习到了许多课本学不到的知识，吸取了不少宝贵经验。
但是却苦了我的双脚。
它们俩今天已经能穿上我平时觉得太formal太不舒服的那双鞋，走遍整个购物商场。
当然，没有比工作穿的那双鞋痛苦。
也更没有高根鞋来得折磨人。

我爱，今天的平静。
无声无息中，把今日该完成之事顺利的完成。

Labels: vacation