Well, school work's really snowballing again nowadays.
As i look at my new year's resolutions set just a month ago, they are in danger of all failing away.

the busy-ness, hectic schedules. CNY reunions & societal needs for New clothes...
I think i'd buy heels this year..maybe a pretty flower skirt & a plain top :)
or something. where got time?!

my new year's resolution of running every day is now dwarfed by all the homework.
Just thursday I decided not to procrastinate (new year resolution #2).
and went running at s 11:30pm
4.8km timing's quite bad (36min) but i'm glad i did it.

I don't want weird diseases when i get older. esp with my super budget constrained diet... and 8h non-stop lectures on 3 out of 5 days this semester.
I'm already trying hard to run 3x a week already. yet now.. that monthly feminine affair has commenced, further dampening my fast disappearing momentum.
Aunty Ruby's a great encouragement. She's like running everyday even though it's late at night at the gym... paying for it. How can I been slack?!

I must not.
I must not let the incessant ridiculous monotonous meaningless routine of life steal away the remainder of my youth. whatever i have left of the prime of my life.
I have got to set out goals to achieve. that i may look back,, in my sixties and say "it was a crazy time... but i achieved something"
Something more than grades & career achievements. transient pursuits in the rat race... pointless paper chases and materialistic pursuits.


Other than that, I really thank God for all that He has done since I left the juveniles.
The cell group that didn't exist when I left them, and the uncertainty was really no uncertainty at all... I'm glad I trusted in Him. and ended up in this cell group.

For a while I really doubted if I could even hear God anymore... was I too screwed up, too messed up, too evil, too lousy etc etc.. to ever hear Him speak again.
Friday's cell was great. Great seeing that everybody was so excited talking about missions & wanting to grow in the Lord together. (: crazy and impossible plans we didn't know where to start.... like what going to Kazakhstan for mission trip end of this year...(don't take this seriously... we were randomly brainstorming)
Coincidentally, or not, I was also thinking of setting up a medical mission in church that morning (like it was a totally random & impossibly funny thought). Yet, someone else brought it up during cell which got everybody excited~

Today i gave myself a break from the morning alarm. I slept till 1:30pm since I slept at 3:30am on Friday morning... and then I proceeded to study until now...
Bonjour pandan bread saved my growling stomach and my trusty tie guan yin tea leaves are great comfort!
I was doing thai 2 homework so happily for like 3h which felt like 1.5h. and I wanted to check if it was 11pm yet cos I was just destressing by doing Thai. I have like crazy test on Tues..
Yet I realised it was 1:30am!!!! *yikes*

Caffeine in tea leaves keeping my sympathetic nervous system stimulated.
Going on to memorise Asthma Medication Regiment.

love you. whoever is reading this :)

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